Ashton Imagine

This is the first imagine ive ever wrote, so i apologize for any typos or confusion :)

It was the night after you and Ashton had a huge fight, you told him that you hated him and he said that it might be over, the fight was just something meaningless that went explosive and ended with both of you in tears cursing at each other. You were staying 5 days at your boyfriend and the boys house in cali while theyre on break, last night was the 4th night and you ended up leaving and staying at your cousins house who lives an hour away. Tonight is the last night you have in cali before flying back home, you havent spoke to Ashton since the fight but you texted Calum saying that you were coming by to pick up your stuff, he said that theyre going out and the key is under the matt.

Its 11:30 and you arrive at the boys house in your cousins car, you came alone. You grab the key from under the matt and open the door. You walk into the house and see your black hoodie lying on the couch so you pick it up and start heading towards the stairs. When you get closer to the kitchen you start to hear a wheeping sound so you enter the kitchen.

Right before your eyes sitting there on the floor against the counter you see Ashton with blood dripping down his arm and a puddle on the floor, a blade in his hand, and cuts all over his wrist. You scream out his name louder than you have ever screamed in your entire life. Your heart stops and it feels like the world is frozen, you can feel your heart sinking. What felt like an eternity was only about one second because the second you screamed his name you ran over to him, grabbing the blade and throwing it to the left of you. Ashton starts crying uncontrollably, you stand up and grab the roll of paper towel and drop to the floor wrapping his wrist in it while he buries his head into your chest. Once his arm is shittily wrapped in layers of paper towel you wrap your arms around his neck comforting him. You whisper in his ear that you love him and he squeezes you even tighter letting out loud sobs.

20 minutes go by and youre both in the same position. You can feel Ashton starting to regain his breath and the crying is steadily slowing down. You whipe Ashtons hair out of his face and tell him that youre going to get some band aids and a towel to wipe this mess up. You make him promise that hes not going to move. You fastly walk upstairs to the bathroom. Once youre in the bathroom you hear the front door open and Michael, Calum, and Luke talking, you hurry for the band aids and when you turn around you see Calum, he says that Luke and Michael are comforting Ashton, he asks if youre okay. Calum is the go to guy when you or Ashton have problems, hes always there for comfort. You look at Calum wondering why hes asking that, and then you realize you were the reason Ashton cut. You start crying and cant even bare to look at yourself in the mirror. Cal said that he will take care of the mess and reassures you that it wasnt your fault.

You go downstairs and start heading towards Ashton, Luke, and Michael, Ashton asks the boys if you to can just be alone, they say yes of course. You help Ashton with putting on the band aids, and then look at the clock, its midnight so you and Ashton head up to his room.

You enter his room and he changes out of his shirt. He hands you your favorite tshirt of his, the white new order one with those stupid holes that he puts in them and you go to the bathroom to pee and change. Even though you have 5 days of clothes at the house you happily change into the tshirt. When your done and walk out of the bathroom Ashton is just sitting on his bed staring at his wrist. He looks up with tears in his eyes and begins to cry again saying that hes sorry. You run over to the bed and hug him tightly saying that he never has to apologize. He says that he dosent know what to say and you reply saying that he dosent have to say anything and youre there for him. It hurts you to see Ashton look so broken, and you cant bare the thought of losing him.

There was not a lot of conversation between you to that night, but there wasnt a second where you to werent in each others arms, right before falling completely asleep you hear Ashton say that he didnt know what he would do without you.

When you wake up in the morning youre both in the same position, youre the big spoon and Ashton is the little spoon with your legs interlocked. Even though he is a foot taller than you it felt nice to comfort Ashton and have him in your arms for a change. When he wakes up he rolls over and kisses you smiling good morning. You both sit up and he thanks you for everything you say that he dosent need to thank you and ask if hes ready to talk about what happened. He said that when he was in high school he would cut during touch times and that the physical pain made the emotional pain feel better, that after you left his house he thought he lost you for good and said he couldnt handle not being with you and he was so upset with himself and the things he said that he relapsed and cut again. You make him promise that no matter what happens he will never cut again. He kisses you and you can tell hes still shooken up so you tell him youre not going anywhere, and decide to spend the rest of the day cuddling in bed and trying to find ways to hear his amazing little laugh.