"Why? Why do you care so much about him?" my mom asks me aggressively.
"Oh i'm sorry mom that I want to find out who my dad is! You don't tell me crap about him, all I know is that he left you when he found out you where pregnant." I try to sound as compassionate for her as I can.
"Fine you wanna know so badly? He left me when I thought I could trust him, and when I did all he did was use me. When I told him what happened he left. I was sixteen Emily. Sixteen with a baby." Her voice cracks and she starts to cry. I go over to her and hug her.
"Mom I didn't know i'm so sorry." I start to cry with her. "It's okay I just don't want you to make the same mistake I did." She croaks "I'm sorry I kept this from you I just was scared." She wipes away the tears falling from her face.
I say with a raspy tone, "It's okay, I understand i'm just sorry I pushed you to tell me." She speaks, "No its not your fault. We shouldn't be crying about this and what he did to me, yes it was a bad time for me but look what came out of it." She hesitates, " I have you now, you are my world and i'm oh so great full for that. Now lets go do somethings to get our minds off of this."
"O-o-okay i'll go get ready." I hiccup from the crying.
I walk upstairs to get changed and throw on a cut off white tee paired with some black sweatpants and a sweater, and leave my matted messy hair down.
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"Where do you want to go it's like 3:30 in the morning mom." I say as I bend down and slip on some white sneakers.
"I have an idea don't worry." She slides on a coat and grabs her car keys and opens the door to the garage. "Okay well I do have school tomorrow so." I chuckle as I get into the passenger seat.
We sit in the car quietly with music playing in the background. My mom has been driving for about 20 minutes now, and the sun is starting to rise. She pulls into an off road place and parks the car where you can no longer see anything behind us.
"Where here!" She states excitedly as she removes the car keys from the ignition. "Where in the middle of no where mom I hope you know that." I unbuckle my seat belt as she does the same we both open the doors to the car and shut them.
"Exactly. You know when sometimes I leave?" She asks with a smirk and I reply, "Yeah what about it, you're creeping me out now." I say as I begin to follow her up a hill. "Well this is where I go Emily."
We come up over the hill and all I can see it the city from a far away view. Its beautiful, the sun is rising making the city glisten.
All I can come up to say is "Wow." "Mom this is beautiful!" I speak out hesitant to break the silence once again. She doesn't say anything, she just stands there admiring the world. I wall up closer to her and give her a side hug and say, "Everything will be okay mom, it will get better I promise."
She turns to me and cups my face in her hands and slowly says "Its not that honey, we are losing the house. I can't afford it anymore. Where gonna have to move, i'm sorry." She lets go of my face and looks back at the sunrise.
All I manage to say is, "Okay, if that's what we have to do then that's what we have to do. I'll get a job and help too." I reach out to grab her hand. She turns to me with a tear streaming down her face.
She stutters "Y-y-you're going to have t-to move in with your grandma...." she trails off at the end. "But mom, what about you?" I let go of her hand and turn her towards me. "What are you going to do? Why do I have to move in with grandma? Why can't I stay here with you?" I say nervously.
Quickly she drops to her knees and looks up to me, "You're almost legally and adult which mean you can be on your own, I'am thirty four. I have a daughter with no husband or someone else to financially support me, I can't raise you by my self anymore. I'm sorry. So you are going to stay with grandma until your eighteen, you will finish high school there, meet new people make new friends. I will still visit but I need to figure out what to do next, not only for me but for you too."
I drop to her level and tell her I understand and ask her when I will move in with my grandma and she tells me in three days.
We both get back up dust our self's off wipe away our tears and start to head back to the car. We get in and drive back home in silence, but not awkward silence its just peaceful.
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