Perfectly Imperfect

Chapter 8

Its been a week since the party and my first kiss that ended up losing my virginity. I dont feel innocent at all. Its hard to face and talk to Ella like the usual. Everytime I see her, I try not to end up blurting it all out. She's really open and tells me everything. Im betraying her and Meg. I dont deserve their trust. I dont feel like a good friend. Alex insisted that we wait for another week to tell Ella and his parents. He said  Ella just broke up with Braiden and he doesnt want to make her even more sad when we tell her.I really feel guity.

Just like every other day, Ella played her guitar. She told me she knows how to play the Green Day song. 21 Guns. He favourite band. Im not a big fan of bands, but when Ella plays and sing, it was one of my fav song. 

Ella never played to anyone except me, Alex and her parents. Now, she has the confidence to play infront of the whole school. Meg's really proud of her. Ive changed her.

"Okay, I have to tell you my biggest secret" she grinned at me.

I opened my eyes widely "What is it?"

She whipered. "Ive done it. I lose my virginity to Braiden at the party last week"

I was surprised. Ella and I lost it the same day, and she told me, I did not.

Now, I feel really guilty.

"What did'ya do at the partay?" she asked me.

I have no idea what to answer. She told me that she wasnt a virgin anymore, but did I tell my bff? No. Now, im a little freaked  out. How if Ella found out and hate me forever? Meg would do that too and make Alex hate me too.

I have to speak to Alex about this.

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Im sleeping over at Ella's. Rosalie didnt mind. Ella's is sleeping peacefully beside me, with her blond hair covers her face. Watching her innocent face make me feel even more guilty. Then the door quitely opened.

"Alex" I breathed.

He gave me a serious face and whipered softly to not wake Ella up "I think we need to talk"

"I think so too" I nodded.

"But not here, come to my room" I quitely get out of bed and Alex leads me to his room. Ive been to his room once,a year ago, and found him laying the semi-naked with a girl, I think her name was Carlette or something and it wasnt a pleasant view. I went in there because Meg make me call him downstairs. Because of that, he never look at me when he talked like before. He just look down.

I walk in his room. Messy as usual. Clothes laying everywhere on the floor, his xbox were in front of a door, I think its the toilet, dirty underwear's hanging on the bed but his Captain Undewear and Diary of A Wimpy Kid collection of books were placed on the bookshelf neatly. Guys do read.

He took the shirt away from the bed and make me sit. On his bed. I hope we talk, not do something further than that.

"We should tell Ella about us" I told him. We've been together for a week. He never talks to me before because he didnt want Ella and my friendship tore apart because of him, that's what he told me yesterday. He told me that he loves me too.

He nodded. "Okay"

I close my eyes and shook my head' "I dont think I can do this" tears started streaming down my face. "Ella means a lot to me"

He shooked his head "You mean a lot to me too, I dont want to lose you, again"

Lose me again? What's that supposed to mean?

"Please" he begged. His sparkly blue eyes became sad.

"Okay" I tell him, "But im not gonna lie to Ella that im not free to go shopping with her because im on a date with you or keep a secret that we're together, I want to tell her"

He nodded. "I'll do that with you"

He kisses me on my lips softly. "I'll do anything with you"

And I smile. He made me smile and I think im falling in love with him. 

"I love you" he whispered in my ears and let me go back to Ella's room.

Tomorrow, we'll tell her, he mouthed at me and I nod a give him a quick peck on the lips.

Tomorrow indeed, Im telling her.

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New chapter. I feel like updating so I updated :D Ella's on d' side -->