Falling In Love Again

Chapter 1:

My Diary:

I believe life has changed for the better, not many people know what I had to go through to feel like I could trust others. Not alone, the person I never thought I would trust. My heart could never handle rejection, now that I think about it.

I don’t think a lot of people will understand what happened to me, but just know even I can’t explain how to feel anymore. I fell in love with a King. Am I even worthy enough to think of myself as a Princess,let alone a Queen?

Chapter 1:

“Honey, could you come down here for a second?” Getting off of my laptop, I run down the stairs.

“Coming!” I see my fiance Demetri in the kitchen. That man always did know how to cook better.

“What’s cooking, good looking?” It was the line that stole his heart. Love works in such strange ways. Still can’t believe he wants to marry me.

“Bacon, eggs, pancakes, oatmeal, and a little something for your good behavior, apple juice.” He says winking at me from the side of his pan. This flirty man is gonna be the death of me!

“Very funny Babe, I should just lock you up in our bedroom.” I say wrapping my arms around his waist.

“Kinky much, I see I’m starting to rub off on you.” He turns around facing me.

“No, I believe I was rubbing on you,” I say giving his nose a peck, and squeezing his ass cheeks.

“Look at my adorable soon-to-be Hubby, I love you!”

“I love you too, now go brush your teeth, your breath stinks!” He wrinkled his nose out at me, finishing the food.

Giving him a soft slap on his shoulder, I go into our downstairs bathroom. Brushing my teeth and washing my face quickly. Realizing breakfast was almost ready, I go into the living room, turn our smart T.V on and finish watching Season 2 of Attack on Titan.

Hey, don’t look at me like that, who ever said a 22-year-old woman couldn’t like anime is a damn liar!Aaron just ate a Titan!!

I seriously maybe needing therapy after this one….

“Honey, breakfast’s ready!” I hear Demetri say.

“Coming!” I yell, pausing my show, getting off of the couch, and walking to the Kitchen.

Feeling someone pull on my waist pushing me into them, I squeal.

“After 4 years, you still don’t know what I feel like?” Demetri says growling in my ear.

I shiver just thinking of how he says my name. Will I always feel like this? Can I just let myself be loved this one time, without walking away from him? Do I need to always look at him and wonder what my life would be like, would I still be out on the street, without my King? But do I really love him, or is it all a game of my imagination?

“Demetri, stop, I’m not in the mood right now.” I say pushing him away.

“No,I want sexy time.” He says nibbling on my ear. Should I give in so easily? Don’t I want this, to feel him against me, to never again think about my choices, and just let this happen. Maybe I don’t want this, but he does. Whatever it won’t hurt, but it is my first time. I should do it with the one I love. Mother did tell me to wait until marriage, that way if they really loved me they would wait. Demetri would wait, wouldn’t he?

“Demetri, do you love me?” I say softly into his neck.

“No.”He says sternly.

About to walk away from him, he grabs my wrist as if I'm as fragile as a baby.