Short Stories

How long can he last?

Azien sat alone in class once again, ignored by everyone else. He looked up and blinked staring blankly at the room. He was looking at nothing in general, he never did. If you took your time to look at him closely you would see he was lost in thought. Now those thoughts? They were blank also surprising right? But he stopped caring long ago to actually think. If he would think he would break again so he just puts on his headphones and smiles. Oh that smile it was his best friend and worst enemy. To most it was just a somewhat broke smile, forced if you were close to him. To him it was his only protection from showing the world how broken he really was. He gave up on everything only going on by a whim. The kids would look back and start laughing at him for being so quiet. They made fun of him for not being able to answer the questions for him cause he refused to talk. So he smiled at them and laughed with them just so he didn't let up. He hated everyone and everything, he hated himself and everyday only was reminded why. Class would end he would stand and walk out. In the halls it was a little break for him. No one notices him when he walks alone keeping his head down, and for a moment his smile breaks. He just stares at the ground with a blank look but his eyes droop his smile fades and frowns. He laughs to himself as his thoughts run free. But his next class starts, he forces a smile and walks in head held high. But if you looked close enough you'd see all the stress he just had on his face. The cycle repeats over and over till lunch. Why at lunch? Cause he sits alone still maybe a friend once in awhile but nothing more. He is left alone the thing he is scared of. His thoughts take over his heart rave as his mind caves in. His inner self wants out but now is not the time. Soon enough he stands and walks out, going to find a spot alone. Then class starts the cycle resumes. School soon comes to a end as he walks out. you think he would want to be around someone right? Nah he walks alone two mile walk all alone. Its hell and he knows it but no one else is there for him. no one cares and he won't reach out...why should he when they would just leave him behind anyways? So he talks to himself he let free and breaks down. He makes fun of himself like the other he points out all his flaws and why? Cause he had no happy thoughts to change them. its a terrifying forty five minute walk but soon enough he gets home. He goes straight to his room and sighs deeply. He sees his friend and even then has to smile. He cant escape so he texts people and chats. He roleplays and laughs and for a moment everything seems okay. He is happy and care free...but all good things come to a end. Night comes around and he has to shut off his mind but if he isn't lucky, he starts thinking. To many thoughts full his head he wants it to end, he wants them to leave, he just wants  silence but it would never come. He starts to hear the voices that plague his mind, he breaks completely he terrified, he is reliving all his failures and mistakes. But he is silent, no tears there's no need for something that will reveal him. Just silence till he can shut off his mind and sleep...just to start the cycle again.