I really don't know how to feel right now. My feelings are everywhere part of me miss you part of me don't want to see you again. The part of me that wants you back say so many things to me. It tell me so many things but I really don't understand them. I don't know what it is but I just want to hold your hand again I want to kiss your lips again. I want to but my hand on your shoulder again. We used to not talk at school a lot but to us it felt like a lot. It felt like a lot because we used to FaceTime a lot everyday. I know so much about you and how you are. I know what you like and what you don't like. I know you don't want to be with me I know that you want to be with her. But I see why she just like you both of you are perfect together. You gays are a both bowl of sun shine. I know you don't what to be with a girl like me. A girl that thought of kill your self and used to cut herself. But let's remember that you where that one that got me where. I didn't know what you wanted to do with me but if it was to broken me trust me you did it. After been in that hole and Yelling for help. Yelling your name over and over again and I know you hard me. The only thing I don't know is why you don't came help me. All my friends and family came to help me but I never tuck there hand because I was waiting for yours. Then one day you came and I thought it was to help me but you looked down and told me. ''I moved on'' at that point I just wanted to end it.
Second reason why I didn't what to leave you. You where there for me and you taught me what was love. You where there for me when I need you so always. You know that I hand a hard time at home. You know that I was not wanted no where. I still don't know what you saw In me but what ever it was I was glad you saw it. People say let go of him but how can you let go of someone that I you accidentally love. All that time I was with you it felt like I was in haven I felt that you here that reason why god put me where. I don't know if you felt the same way but I hope you did. You many never understand how you made me feel but it ok because I know you don't care.
