The Other.(Discontinue)

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Once you found out the truth, you always being denial. Even though you know that can be proofed, you will deny it. So badly, even people could've thought that you are crazy.

Oh dear liars,
how do you face the truth?

   
                                 ***

Saturday, September 19th.

I sat on a bus quietly. Listening the music with my earbuds. I tried to avoid an eye contact with people because I feel like they are watching me. Even I was a second year student at highschool, people would think I was a middle schooler whose travel alone because I'm so tiny. 

But trust me, I'm not as small as a Hobbit.

I wear a jacket and a hoodie, and a long jeans. Today's kinda chilly. I keep sneezing this morning. That is why wear jacket and a hoodie. I look at my outfit, I just realize it was all dark color. The jacket's dirt color. The hoodie's navy blue. And the jeans are dark blue.

The bus stop. I stand up. And walk out from the bus.

I walk silently to the place where I want to go, Rose Mental Hospital. The map says it was a couple blocks from the bus stop. So I rather choose to go on foot.

                                ***

That building was really big. Somehow I love the font of the Rose Mental Hospital sign. It's kinda cool. I can't describe a lot about the hospital. I think it's more like every other mental hospital. Nothing special about it. Just seems familiar.

I walk inside. I smelled something. Something that every hospital has. I look around before I walk to the front desk. When I start walk closer, I'm pretty sure I hear someone calling my name.

"Will!" I stop. I didn't try to look who's calling me. I just not sure it was me. Then, I hear a footsteps walk towards me. I turn around and see a black guy in a nurse outfit smiling. "Will Crawford!" He said cheerfully. I didn't answer him. I just keep staring confusedly. "I'm Justin. Justin Stevens. Your favorite nurse."

I shake his hand. "My favorite nurse?"

"Yeah, well. Back in the day I was the only one that likes to play with you. Remember?" That Justin guy laughing. He leads me to the hospital's park. I just followed him quietly and listening to the story about me long time ago.

It's really fresh at the park. I saw a bird cages everywhere. And mostly, 'peoples'. "So, how do you know it was me?" I ask after Justin stop talking. "How could I forget the tiny white boy with a black short hair and a blue ocean eyes like you? And your sister, 'course."

"You know my sister?"
"'course! That girl never let you off from her sight."
I sigh, "So I guess I always been a big baby, huh?"

Justin look at me with full of simpathy and I guess he understands my condition, "What do you mean by 'big baby'?" I sigh again, "You know what I mean. And it's never changes."

"Will, I think you are doing a lot better. You know, back then you never even spoke a word. You just stared and do nothing. You won't even move your body, so we have to use a wheelchair. I have to be honest, but back then you seems like a dead person. You won't ever let go of your sister. But now, look at you. You are more like a man. You talk and you walk around without your sister."

I sit down to the nearest bench, so is Justin. I keep looking down and Justin just sit next to me silently waiting for me to say a word.

What I was thinking? I'm just shocked. I just found out that I was like that before. I feel terrible of myself. Ashley must be really ashamed to have a brother like me. And she keeps on going, treat me like what she thinks I deserve to be treated.

"What happened... to me that I became... Like... Like that?" I finally spoke. Justin sigh. He seems nervous. "I'm sorry. I wish I could tell you, but, it's was your sister's right to say it."

I lean back, "Did I get out from here before I was fully recovered?" Justin shake his head, "No, you already recovered before you got home.". I ask again, "Did anything that happened to me back then, could possibly happened to me... Again?"

Justin spacing out for a moment. I guess he only thinking. For a quiet a while. And then, "..Yeah, 'course. If there's anything that could triggered it."

I look at him, "Like what?"

He seems unsure to answer. That guy really trying hard to find the right word. But then, "Justin! Your break is over." A women came towards us to tell Justin his break is over. Justin stand up and ask the women to led me the way out. He turns at me and says sorry. As soon as he walked away, the lady led me to the way out.

Just like that, The day is over.

                                ***

At home. (Ashley's POV)

I just got home from visiting my boyfriend, Peter. He's still unconscius. I sat on the couch watching the TV. But I'm pretty sure I didn't pay any attention to what the TV's showing right now.

Something going on on my mind. Peter's mom told me that Peter was off to met my brother, Will. My question is, why it's always him? And right now, he was somewhere I don't know.

Right when the minutes turn in to 00, the front door open and close. I assume it was Will. I stand right when Will enter the room. We both looking at each other. Not saying a word.

I look away and Will instantly run to his room upstairs.

I miss the fortunate to talk to him. Again. I look at the clock again, now it's 3 PM. I sit down again. A minute later, I receive a message from Chloe. It says that she wants us to join a dinner with her family tonight. I reply with, 'have you ask Will?'

Then, she reply with, 'Yeah. He said ok.'

I smile. I don't know why, I just did. I guess these whole thing really changed him a little.

                                ***

Chloe's house, night time. (Will's POV)

We all sat down around the dinning table. I'm still wearing the same outfit that I wear today. But this time I take off my jacket.

I sat down next to Ashley. In front of me, there's Chloe. She just introducing me and my sister to her family. All I can remember is that we were invited because of her dad's birthday. But still, I don't understand why.

"...Will, huh? You are an interesting boy." Mr. Burke smile at me. I didn't pay attention why, but I guess Chloe keep telling a story about me. I just smile awkwardly, "Thank you, sir."

I look at Chloe, she just smiling.

After the dinner finished, we all doing our own stuff. Ashley talking to Mr and Mrs Burke. And Chloe, she's talking to me near the fireplace.

"What do I miss?" Chloe said.
"Nothing." I'm just spacing out and pretend to look at the fireplace.
"Will, tell me." Chloe speak again.

I smile and turn my head at her, "Things got worse and better at the same time." I tell her everything.

Chloe sigh but smiling too, "I, I totally get it. But Will, if I have to be honest, I think you should make things up with Ashley then ask her. But, don't ever going back to your old self." Chloe punch my shoulder and laughing. So do I. "Thanks, Chlo." I smile at her.

                                ***

I'm not sure how to put it with words. Cause I just feel it. The truth is hurt, but it's not bad as it's seems. It's changes you to be a person. If you don't, just try. I know it's hard, but, it's not useless.