The suicidal fangirl ( Discontinued )

prologue

Y/N was just a little girl when her life changed, her dad left her mom and her mom became mad and abusive. She yelled and beat Y/N blaming Y/N for her father leaving but it doesn't make it much better that her dad secretly sends her money to get by. But when she was 9 her mother got remarried to someone that was worse than she was but one thing didn't sit well with Y/N her step father was a little two ' touchy' with her. until the sad day came on the morning of Y/N's 13th Birthday her step father came to her room and he threw the blankets off her bed and raped her. Y/N was yelling for him to stop " STOP PLEASE DON'T DO THIS" she yelled and that day was when Y/N lost all hope for her life. she started eating a lot and cutting herself, slashing into her skin like paper cutting all of the words people said to her into her skin.

when Y/N was 16 she became suicidal the only thing keeping her alive was this group she begin to love. Y/N loved that group more than herself, more than anything she expressly loved the second oldest member Min Yoongi. she always say Yoongi spoke through her heart like no one else ever did, she said that he felt her pain and fought through it MIn Yoongi was more than an idol to her he was her hero. she wasn't a normal fangirl she didn't obsess on wanting to meet BTS or Yoongi all she wanted was for them to be happy and doing want they love and that was good enough for her, just that thought helped her get through a hard school day of bullies.

But there was one small group of girls that got to her the most and them five girls obsessed over BTS and bullied Y/N for liking BTS. " Yoongi oppa well never like some one as ugly and fat like you" one said followed by another one that said " yeah you are wasting your time, Yoongi oppa is mine i can gave him things you can not ;) " no matter what Y/N did she could not get their words out of her head.

now Y/N is 19 and lost the smallest light that was inside of her, now she was nothing but a walking shell of what she used to be. her mom doesn't feed her or buy clothes for her shes only surviving off of the money her dad sends her each month. it was very hard to live like this at home but at least she wasn't completely alone he had one childhood friend Jackson Wang.

he was there with he through everything and it hurt Jackson that Y/N kept pushing him away when she was depressed and she would not tell him the truth about what shes feeling. Jackson would be lying if he said he didn't have feelings for Y/N, he as had a small crush on her since they were small kids but she doesn't seem to notice him more than just a best friend her heart belongs to someone she can't have and she hates that feeling.

Jackson is worried because Y/N's depression seems to be getting a lot worse and now the only things she does is sleep and sit on the roof of their school. Jackson tried to get her some help but she keeps lying and since not even Jackson knows he cuts so they couldn't catch her in the lie, she always said " its scary what a small smile can hide".

Y/N was just waiting on the perfect time to end the pain forever, she was just waiting on the event that finally pushes her over the edge. she has it planned Y/N always thought of herself as a angel that has to fly back home, So she was going to jump off the roof of her high school and she was going to go home while listening to BTS ' Butterfly '. But what she didn't know was that event was sooner than she thought, is there anyone in the world that could save her?

""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""HIIIIII thanks for reading the prologue ( if you made it this far XD ) This is my first fanfic so please don't hate me to much!!! Please tell me for i should continue it PLEASEEE.