BBC Sherlock Imagines

You Hurt Him - John

I wince as I hear the door slam, Everything was happening so fast... John was about to propose to you, Sherlock is alive, John tries to kill him, and no he has just stormed outside.

"I don't see what that was about" Sherlock scoffs

"You, you don't see why he is angry... oh for Pete's sake Sherlock!" I yell "you lied to him big time!"

"It's no big deal... it's not like I tried to kill him" Sherlock retorts.

"And yet you just about did" I say quietly

"YN, don't be ridiculous, John is perfectly fine."

"How could you have not noticed, with your observation skills I though you would have noticed."

"Noticed what?"

"How many times he's opened that drawer?" Sherlock furrows his brow in reply. "Do you know what he keeps in that drawer, Sherlock," I say tears stinging in my eyes "do you"

"His gun"

"He does it when he thinks I'm not watching... stares at it, deciding weather he should take his own life or no." I say as tears begin to trickle down my cheeks.

"Oh YN, he probably just missed the thrill of using the thing." Sherlock says

"You didn't see him Sherlock! You weren't the one who got drunken phone calls early in the morning!... you weren't the one who got a phone call at 4 am, he said he was going to end all his pain and suffering! He told me it could all be over by one small pull of a trigger!" I scream.

"You weren't the one frantically looking for him... I thought I was going to lose him! You weren't the one who ran through the cemetery to find him sitting by your grave with his gun in his mouth!!!"

Tears are now streaming down my cheeks, I drop to my knees, "you weren't there so you don't understand."

"You hurt him"

John runs back into the room, "YN, I had no idea I was hurting you so bad... you know every time I thought of killing myself I would think of you and I would be okay."

John plants a soft kiss on my lips, "I could never to such a thing to you, I love you YN."