Bitter Sweet Youth

Tequila- Chapter 3

I love the feeling of nice hot water on my skin.It soothes me,and relaxes me of my stress.I love the moments I have with my group of friends.But I also love my moments alone,since that is where I don't have to hide my emotions.I don't tell the boys about my problems or stress,I don't want to burden them with my feelings.Thats why I always listen to their problems,and talk to them when they need it,because it makes me happier when those I love are happy.I cherish the moments I have with them the most,since they are my happiness.They are the ones that keep me going,keep me motivated.Without them,I would be so far gone into my depression,that it'd be too late.I cherish my youth,though its bitter sweet,its the only time ill be free.I dread the thought of growing up.Its not the idea of aging,its the thought of a place without my best friends.It's the thought of being alone,forever,since you know no lover can give you the amount of love friendship does.Sure,they give you physical love,they show physical affection,but can they make you feel complete like best friends do? But,what do I know,iv'e never been in love.Heck,iv'e never even had a crush.Sure,all my best guy friends are gorgeous,but none of them have given me the feeling it describes in books.That butterfly feeling.Like you can see through there insecurities,love them eternally,even though they're flawed,like me.

I used to feel useless.Like I could disappear off the face of the earth,and no one would care.The only time I felt loved was when my mother was alive.But now I have my besties. I smile at just the thought of them.They are the world to me,but I bet they don't know that.Before I could stop it,I felt a tear slide down my cheek,in the mixed of the water droplets from the shower.I usually think a lot in the shower,its where I can be me.

After my little fit of tears in the shower,I decide its time to get out,and see if Tae really kept his promise,and didn't eat all the pizza i bought for us.

After drying off,and changing into my fuzzy low-rise shark pajama shorts,along with a slim fitting cotton pink tank top,I was ready for movie night with Tae.Every Sunday is movie night with the boys,or just Tae and I.

I skipped down the stairs to see that there is still half the pizza left. "Wow,i'm surprised its not all gone" I said,as I plopped on the couch next to him.He smiled,and wrapped an arm around my shoulder, while simultaneously shoving popcorn into his mouth. "I saved the whole half,just for you.You should be proud of me" He smiled,proud of himself.I just shook my head and rolled my eyes,turning back to watch Magic Mike(lol).

I heard a knock at the door. "The boys are here" Tae said.I got up,and practically sprinted to the door.I flung open the door to be greeted with a smiling Hobi.I smiled back,and before I knew it,the rest of them trampled in,holding a bunch of snacks and board games. "Today we are going to have a sleepover with our favs!" Jimin exclaimed loudly,while holding up some tequila bottles. "But we have school tomorrow Chim Chim.I don't wanna drink" I muttered at him.He only smiled back at me,his cute eyes almost disappearing. "C'mon,your always up for a little fun and you know it."

By now all the boys were begging me,and I just couldn't resist their pouts. "Fine" I sighed,giving in.All of a sudden,I was caught up in a huge group hug.Holy crap,cuteness overload.I guess its gonna be a long night.

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