All those smiles i fake
All those nights im awake
Im just the biggest of the god's mistakes.
Living this life got me so confused
Im sleeping in a bed of razorblades i used.
I already know, that this saddness will never end
What i always knew is that my body suspend.
I feel so fucking sorry for who i became.
Only feeling i can give is a shame.
Dont wanna be boring, so here's a twist.
My hands are shaking they want to slit my wrists.
No control of my eyes,
They always looking for something sharp like knife. Im a creator.
Edge of knife, stick it under eye, i wish i could feel something,
Brain is telling me "drag it down, create the scar of a scarry clown".
The only thing i really know, is I can't sleep at night.
The only thing i really want, oh please let me end this life.
There is next thing i really know, there is no fucking paradise!!
Let me die!
Im too tired of telling you that im just fine.
Let me die!
Im too tired of being sad.
Its okay to cry!
I dont mind, if you'll see me dead tonight!
I really tried!
So fucking hard to stay alive!
Im always runnig,
But i cant hide
Its fucking funny
I cant hide from suicide.
Im so tired of all theese lies
I push my fingers into my eyes.
I'll go blind so please dont look for me in all those pieces of broken mirror's glass.
