Fade in, fade out
The tables have turned
Remain in doubt.
I wake up in a screaming fit. This one seems worse than all the others. I'm being sucked into a hole of rejection. One side are these couples, one female one male. The rejected side has couples of two males and couples of two females. I'm in the rejected side. Why?
My mom runs in and shakes me fully awake. I am sweating and scared and I don't say a word. I get up and walk to the other room. Why me?
I'm awake from 2:00 a.m. until daylight. I text Gavin at 8:30.
Me: hey xx
Gavin: hi:)
Me: does "liking" you make me gay?
Gavin: um, well, yeah
Me: oh.
Gavin: Troye, it's okay, that's not a bad thing.
Me: but what if it is?
Gavin: it isn't, I promise.
Me: alright
Gavin: uh, we have talk about something
Me: yeah?
Gavin: I, well I have cancer. I'm not doing well but I'm trying, for you.
Me: Gavin! but...
Gavin: ik but I can't help it if I'm dying.
Me:I don't know what to say.
Gavin: doctor said mayb a week. We can spend it together...
Me: yes, please.
Gavin: :) okay. I got to go for now :*
Me: alright. Byeeee.
Fucking cancer! Perfect. This is crap. No! No. Ugh. Why?! Fine, I'll just cherish our last days even more.
I stay home all day. Working on editing skills I guess. I make another video and it's not too bad. Hiding my secret Gavin helped me figure out is good I hope.
(Days later)
I've spent almost everyday this week with Gavin. We went to the park, the movies, and to an amusement park. It's been great. I'll miss this. We haven't been talking about the OAI or the cancer. It's for the best.
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Shortish? Well, sorry. I do hope you like its kind of getting better right? IDEK.
Well I hope you like!
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Okay, byeeeeeee lovies!
_Taylor_
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Pain Defines Us (Troye Sivan)
Teen FictionA young teenage boy has discovered he has a very rare disease. It fills him with pain and uncertainty. He questions what is real. It affects his mind and actions.
