Love from a alpha

Part four: Monster

"Y-you MONSTER!" Kamarias mother shouted at me  once i had told her about what happened. She was right i am a monster. Her husband spoke "honey please don't talk to the alpha like that" she had all the right to do so. I stood quite and walked out the door and to my house.

^ a month later^

I herd constant knocking on the door but I didn't respond. I was laying in a corner of my room looking down "CONNER KING YOU BETTER OPEN THIS DAMN DOOR BEFORE I KICK IT DOWN" i herd Nathan shout and I groaned and got up opening the door "What" i said bluntly.

"Conner damn what happened to you" i saw him make a disgusted face and I looked down at myself. I was a mess. My face was not shaved i had a dirty white t shirt and dirty sweatpants. I even forgot when was the last time i showered. I looked up at him "look I know you've been depressed after what happened with Kamaria b-but you can't live like this, you need to move on" he said and I growled turning away.

I turned back to him "HOW, How can i move on knowing that I-I left her in a coma" I cried "I'm a monster nathan" i saw Nathan shocked face "Conner look at what this girl has done to you. What is happening, i mean the conner from two months ago you wouldn't have cared if an omega like her was put in coma geez YOU WOULDN'T HAVE CARED IF SHE DIED"

I stood quite thinking "leave i want to be alone" I said looking away "no I'm not leaving" he said and I growled "conner you've been my best friend ever since we were little and I am not leaving you here to drown yourself in tears because of that-girl" he said and i felt more annoyed "I-SAID-LEAVE" i said in my alpha voice and he left. I slammed the door and threw  the lamp near by at the wall.

monster..monster..Monster! That's what i am.

^a month later^

I finally decided I should go see her. I was walking to the pack hospital my heart pumping rapidly. Nathan had gotten me to shower and shave my face and change. I walked to her room but stopped. No... Cynthia was standing there in james arms. I decided to ignore them and walked straight for the door.

"What do you think you're doing" i her james question me and I turned angrily and saw Cynthias eyes widen to see me "I'm going to see her" I scoffed "no you're not, it's your fault shes like that" he said and I growled "Look i am the alpha of this pack and no omega is going to tell me what i can or cannot do got it okay" I said angrily 'pathetic' I mumbled and i open the door to the room and walked in closing the door behind.

I walked up to her and grabbed her hand. I started crying seeing her like this "Kamaria I'm sorry I am so so sorry" I said as I sobbed on her shoulder "please wake up" I said looking at her. I couldn't be there anymore i was starting to let go of her hand and I felt a squeeze "c-conner" i herd a whisper and quickly turned.

"Kamaria" i said and i saw her make a scared face but she didn't move "hey what's wrong don't be scared" she kept her frightened face and i walked out the room and called a doctor.

I paced back and fort while the doctor checked her "okay good news her vitals seem normal" she let out a breath "bad news because of the coma she cannot walk, but with the help of therapy and hard work in a few months she'll be able to again" the doctor said "also she cannot really talk right now. Don't stress her" she said and walked out the room.

I reached for Kamarias hand and she slowly moved it away. I noticed the was scared "Look im sorry okay I meant to attack yo-" I stopped to realize that wouldn't make it any better "you know what its fine i hope you get better Kamaria, goodbye" I said and walked away.

Kamis POV

I saw him walk away. I was scared of him VERY. I saw my brother and Cynthia come in to the room "hey sis" james said as he walked up to me "hey" i wanted to say more but couldn't "it's okay, you should get some rest. You start therapy tomorrow and you need to be well rested. I sigh and slowly fall asleep.

^next day^

I woke up when i herd a knock on the door. The doctor came in with a guy in his mid 20s who may I just say was Fine "Kamaria this is dr.Brookston he'll be your therapist for the next few months. Well I should get going now" the doctor said looking at her watch then walked out the room.

He walked up to me "For today I just wanted to start by getting to know you. I just feel like by having a sorta connection it makes therapy easier" i saw him smile and I nodded smiling. "Call me Carson"