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Carls POV
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I walked back to the cell blocks hoping she was still in my cell. Dad said he would have us all vote tonight, to see if she can stay. But for now he was talking to her.
I was approching my cell, and heard talking. should I go in there? , I thought. I decided to wait it out for a few minutes. I couldnt hear the words exactly, but it sounded like my dad talking calmly and a few feminine "okays".
I waited for a few more minutes and walked inside. she looked hazy as dad talked. when I came into her full view she became alert and smiled at me. I smiled back. Dad stopped lecturing and turned around to look at me. I looked at Ilisa.
"Hey Ilisa." I said unsuccsesfully holding back a smile. "Whats up."
" Do you understand what I was saying Ilisa?" dad asked finishing up their discussion.
"Ya, totally. thank You for letting me stay the night. I'd be willing to pull my weight around here if you let me stay. " she said.
" just don't cause any problems, and you should be fine." Dad said, then he looked at Ilisa, looked at me, look back at Ilisa and smiled.
" well I guess ill leave you to alone then."he said walking away.
yes! Alone time.
I walked over to the bottem bunk of my bed and sat at the edge. I was cautious not to sit to close to her, I didn't want to seem creepy.
" so...... Whats up?" I asked again.
" um, nothing. your dad wants me to wait here till they have decided. so, sorry for crashing your room,......or cell. " she said. there was something about her voice that made me feel relaxed. I think it is her low, smooth tone, that made everything she said sound like a secretive whisper. i looked at her as she looked forward. her golden hair cascaded over her light face, highlighting a pair of the bluest eyes I've ever seen. she was gorgeous.
" ya, no problem." I said, trying to keep cool. " So...... tell me about yourself." I said, hoping to learn more about her and keep up a conversation at the same time.
She turned her head to look me in the eyes. I was fourced to smile. I looked deep into her eyes and noticed her expression seemed seriouse.
" I rather not." she said. I looked at her and felt embarrassed. like someone punched me in the chest. this is why I needed advice. that was one lucky thing about the end, I had never felt rejection.
"why not? " I asked. hurt was heavey in my voice.
" Hey listen, I didnt mean to upset you or anything........." she said, moving closer to me. I leaned towards her as she continued speaking. " its just, if I cant stay I dont want to have to miss you. so I rather not have us get to know eachother if you dont mind."
Although it made perfect sence, I didnt like it. I didnt like that there was a possibility of her not staying. I looked over to her and our eyes met. we locked our gazed only to be broken by a swift look down at her lips and back. I imagined them pressed against mine, with her arms rapped around my shoulders and my arms around her waist. I wanted that so bad.
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Ilisas POV
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I wanted to be close to him. I wanted to pour my heart out to him and talk. But I didnt want to miss him, so I played it smart and made pleasant small talk. we conversed about school subjects and dogs and stuff like that. We would look at eachother time to time and just stare. it was alittle weird but hey, I dont mind if he doesnt.
we finished talking. it turns out that there wasnt much to talk about without getting too personal, so we sat in silence exchanging looks. He was really cute. I tried to burn his image in my brain so id always remember him. I memorized his long dark brown hair covered by an oversized sheriff's hat . I stared into his clear blue eyes. I noticed is half grin. Oh God, I love his half grin.
like I said, we sat in silence for a while, looking at eachother. I looked down at his hands and noticed, that they were suspicions closer to mine. I also scooted my hand closer ,to meet his. I hovered my fingers over the top of his hand, trying to get his attention. he didnt get the hint. I placed my hands on my lap, and started thinking, which freaked me out. my mind was the worst place for me to be, and when I get there, there is no telling what can happen.
I thought about how screwed I would be if they didnt let me stay. I had nowhere else to go. no food, no water, no shelter. Nobody to talk to was the worst of it all. thinking like this made me so sad.l tried to hold back the tears as they welled up in my eyes. I could cry in front of him, that would make me seem weak. I needed to keep my cool and swallow my emotions.
I tried to take a deep breath, but I made a noise. Carls head shot up and his eyes met mine.
"whats rong?" he asked, looking genuinely concerned.
" Nothing." I said whipping the tears from my eye. Carl reached his hand up and helped me with the other eye. We held onto a long, intense eye contact, his hand resting on my face. he then moved his hands down and hugged me. well, more like he held me. We just sat there for a few minuets, him holding me as i calmed down.
"im scared." I admitted. " i have nowhere else to go. ill die out there." I felt like an idiot telling him this and breaking down, but whats done is done.
" its ok." he whispered in a calming tone." ill keep you safe." he pushed back hair from my face and continued to hold on to me.
And for the first time in months, I felt completely safe, like no matter what came through that door, I would be ok. There was only one thing that could harm me now, and that was the decision.
