Hope After All....

Lead me out of the dark

(Hey guys!! Welcome to part 4!!! Thank you so much for you guys support!! Feel free to message me at any time if there are any mistakes you see or if you have (friendly) advice for me!! Again thank you so much for reading and the picture is of Robert!! Enjoy!!)

(Three days later.)
Nicole's POV.

  It has been three days after Jeff and I's conversation and let's just say that it has been...Well...Awkward. It's just so hard to know that you love someone so much but also know that the same person you fell in love with, has killed so many innocent people. While I love Jeff so much and want to go back to the way we were before everything happened, I know that I can't. I know that we can't. I'm not the same innocent girl that was so in love with this boy at school she used to daydream about him in class every day or write cheesy love letters to him and not have the courage to ever give him one of them let alone all of them.
And Jeff is not the same boy that used to sneak out and be with his girlfriend or hold her when she would break down from the terrible things Randy would do and say to her. He isn't the same boy who always bought flowers for there anniversary whether it had been a month or a year. Or how he would always be willing to help her with her math homework when he knew that she was struggling. But instead he is different and he is still healing from the incident. And so am I. I am not the 16-year-old Nicole of the past but rather the 20-year-old Nicole of the present who is so fucking depressed because of that damn bastard Randy and wants to die because what's the point of living when you know it's all your fault that your boyfriend is a psychotic killer because of what that Bastard did to him. Oops. I went there again. Dr.Sam is going to be mad when I tell him what I have been thinking, let alone what Mom is going to feel when he tells her that I am going off the deep end again. God, I am a mess up. Not only am I the cause of everything that happens around me but I'm the cause of everything that happens inside my mind. What would Jeff think of me? Huh. I haven't thought that thought since before the Incident. You know maybe Jeff would understand. No. He is going to understand. He has been here since day one of my Ocd and depression diagnosis. God. I actually admitted it. I haven't done that since, Wait, The only time I did was to Jeff. It was Jeff. How could I be so stupid!?! I am never going to find someone like Jeff. I will never find someone who is going to keep my secret and support me through the breakdowns and through the accomplishments. What are you doing here Nicole? Find him! I have to talk to him! I have to tell him I love him! Dammit! Where're my keys? I ran to my kitchen table and grab them. Ah Hah!! I found them! I ran to my front door, grabbed my bag and threw on my black boots and bolted to my car. I didn't even bother to lock the front door and started the car. I drove out of my driveway and headed towards Slender Man's mansion.

( Wow that was not intended. I wasn't planning on putting Nicole's backstory yet but all the sudden I felt like I needed to! Thanks again for reading and please leave a comment and vote!! Thanks!! Love you guys!!😘)