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Hey guys,

I have so many things bouncing around in my head right now that I really don't know where to start.

For those of you who don't know, I just started my final exams today. My first exam was English which had me so stressed out I don't know what to say. I spent honestly, six+ hours yesterday studying alone, not to mention the days before. All for English. I woke up this morning and felt like I was going in for a death sentence. I dragged my rear end out of bed, as much as I really didn't want to. I could barely get breakfast down and when I got to the school, I thought it might come back up. I could not stop shaking and I seriously thought I might pass out. I got in the exam room (the gym) and I swear, people must have been able to feel the floor shaking from across the gym. I was happy when I got out but I felt like I went into some mini depression once I got home. I lid on my bed, watching videos and dozing in and out of sleep (even though I had slept good last night in prep for my exam). I thought that maybe seeing a movie would help so I went to see How to Train Your Dragon 2 in 3D (just got 3D a while back, so it's a big deal to watch 3D). I drove home and honestly, I thought that maybe I was ok.

But as soon as I got close to home I realized I had to back in to the frigging driveway.

Have you ever tried to back in a Silverado with a full sized cab and dump into a driveway with a trailer? It is the hardest thing I've ever done in the truck. But with my luck today, I ended up ON THE GRASS! Couldn't even manage to park on the edge of the grass, nooooooo, I went full on up the front yard almost.

So then I'm all, nope! nope! nope! ain't happening!

I drive all the way around the block (couldn't pull into a drive way to turn around, that would require me to back out, which I obviously can't do!) to attempt it again but I chicken out like the absolute loser I am and just pull head on into the driveway.

I came inside, pretended everything was fine, went to my room and bawled for 30-45 minutes. Like, full on sobbed while looking out the window and realizing what a failure I am at driving.

So, now that I've ranted about my horribly boring life, I need to talk about something that is probably equally as boring.

I don't think I'm going to keep writing.

I don't know, at least not publicly.

I feel like I'm just writing for myself anyway so what's the point of putting it up? I don't want this to be a "boo hoo, I'm so unpopular on wattpad" thing but I honestly feel like no one is reading my chapters anyway. If the next chapter (which I plan to post this week) doesn't get some sort of response (a comment, vote, anything) I'm done posting my stories on Wattpad.

I know that's an "ultimatum" or something, but I just can't keep doing this.

I hope you all understand (if there actually is someone reading this) why I'm doing this.

Anyway,

Comments, concerns, votes, whatever I guess.

~Casi<3~