Orario

Chapter 1 "Beginning"

Darkness.

"Are you sure? You've spent a lot of time on it... How can you trust me so much with your account?" his name is Cameron. My only Christian friend.

"I just don't need it anymore." I was giving my high-ranking gaming account to him.

"the password is levy... l, e, v, y."

"You named your password after her...man what a pure soul you have." I pity him. he doesn't know me very well. nobody except... her.

"Don't call me that. even the devil was once an angel."

"But the devil only confronted god. he still believes in his existence. also, he punishes the evil. but people blame him for their own actions." we always had these conversations... about slightly everything. we became some kind of philosophers.

"What about Schneider?"

"I can't take care of him right now, can you keep him for some time at your house?"

"Yes, no problem."

"By the way. he's not mine. I just take care of him. I found him on the streets at a time and, a weather like this..." I loved my cat from the moment I laid my eyes on her dirt-covered white fur... and her yellow eyes.

"Really? Sounds so sad and cruel someone to leave such a cute being in the street like that, and what happened to Levy was..." I interrupted him.

A strong burst of thunder struck the sky and immediately after it was only the sound of wind and rain.

" Camy, please."

"S-sorry! So...how was the...results?" he asked about the results of my... cancer health test.

"It's spreading...all over my liver... It can't be cured." I wasn't doing good.

"I pray every night for your survival..." 

"Really? Thanks. I appreciate it... but that will do nothing for me... so? what will happen if I survive? I'll only endure for a couple of months, and, if it continues to-" Milan interrupted me. "Bell! what are you-" I interrupted him

" IF! it continues to spread inside the rest of my liver-" he interrupted me again!

"Bell for the love of god!" and I interrupted him as well.

"My Life is at God's mercy!" I shouted.

"don't be like that. if you keep thinking that it'll only make your situation worse!"

"I must object... I always think like that." I really do that, all the time.

"Then stop thinking like that! come on be more confident." we kept yelling at each other over the phone.

"I am confident about one thing..."

"Whats that?"

"Death is waiting for me"

"Wait! what?! Bell hold on! Please! wait she left something for-"

"Don't try to lie to a lier, if she had left something for me she would-"

"But Bell-" I've had enough...I will just.. stop.

"Goodbye, my friend"

I ended the call from my phone and silence took over the room. only the sound of soft wind and rain, I felt so dread and dead from the inside as a cold chill breached my room's window. I didn't care about closing it since it won't be for much use for me

My steps echoed through the room. I moved my chair and the sound of it's scraping filled the room 

"Dear second-mother, thanks for taking care of me and my father when my first mother died. I don't have anything to say because either I just don't know what to say, or either I don't want to say anything. since Levy died I died with her but just not instantly. I've discovered that I won't do what people say about 'finding other fish in the sea' so, goodbye, Ada, and Cameron." 

then I placed my pen near the paper and laid my head backward. in the silent.. dread.. ambiance of the place which I call my room. I was preparing for my own death. I opened the small bottle of poison I got from an old man. I smelled it. I examined it. I absorbed it. at first, it tasted kind of sweat.. then.. it began.

my head was raging as all of my memories appeared in front of me and how my brain, my stomach, and my heart were melting away as if someone was breathing fire into them. I felt my body weakening with each and every second. I fell down to my knees and started vomiting both food and blood. my lungs felt like someone had attached anchors to them. was I already in hell? soon, after 1 agonizing minute of torture... I felt the warmth on my face. a sensation of tranquillity and relief that made all the darkness in my heart fade away.

the calm wind started moving my hair. and I started hearing things, all kinds of people talking and arguing.  I slowly opened my eyes to get blinded for a second until I gained my full vision.

I found myself standing in the middle of a road, in a crowded an urban market with four roads. each heading in different ways. one to the north, one to the south, one to the east, and one to the west.

I examined my surroundings and discovered that the people walking near me were wearing unusual clothes, some of them were wearing robes like priests, some of them were wearing armor and holding all kinds of weapons. Swords, Spears, shields, rapiers, bows, crossbows, and uniquely shaped staffs.

I started venturing slowly into the market with the warmth of the sun and the smell of meat being roasted in the air. sounds of laughter, and cheers of beer bottles being lifted up. and lovers kissing each other.

"this.. isn't a dream.." I understood that I was in another world. much different from the one I left.

I felt it inside me... the rush of adventure! but I reminded myself I had nothing. actually, I wasn't wearing my clothes, I was wearing some sort of... farmer's clothes.

and so my journey begins I stared into the blue heavens above and I said to myself "wonderful" thus I had a vigorous will to live in this world more than the past world.

And my journey is just beginning.