Promises

Chapter Two

I've been ready and waiting for almost twenty minutes when I hear a knock on the door. Thinking it was Shawn, I opened the door with confidence. I was slowly brought down when I realized it was Torii. She has a impudent look on her face as I opened the door. She smiled confidently and said "I heard Shawn made plans with you tonight." I looked at her confused and replied "Umm, yeah? I am.. And?" She laughed at my comment "Why the hell are you going on a date with Shawn? We all know he still has feelings for me Jackie, don't get ahead of yourself." she continued. I tried to shut the door on her, but she put her foot in the door and said softly "Oh and remember Jackie, nobody likes a cutter." and with that, she removed her foot and the door slammed. I started crying, and I slid down the wall 'till my butt hit the floor and cried untill Shawn pulled up. I quickly whiped my face and checked my mascara real quick, I still put it on even though he told me not to.. Once I felt like I looked semi-decent, I opened the door. "Are you ok Jackie?" he questioned. "Uh, yeah. I'm fine. Don't worry." I reassured him. "Well, let's get going, shall we?" He asked with a smile brighter than the moon. "We shall.." I replied, but instantly regretted it. He took my hand and led me to his car, opened the passenger side door, and shut it once I got in. Once he sat down after shutting his door, he softly giggled. "What are you laughing at?" I asked laughing as well. "You just look really beautiful right now, all natural and everything.. Except I do see some mascara Jackie.. Tisk tisk." he chuckled. "Yeah, I uh.. Kinda feel like a zombie without it.." You replied looking away from him. "Well, you'd be a hot zombie then." he said while driving off. I had no idea where he was taking us. "Shawn, where are we even going?" I asked laughing. "You'll see sugarplum." He replied flashing that bright smile. What the hell. Did he just call me 'Sugarplum' ? God he was so stupid, yet so freaking beautiful. I love it. 

The ride was about 20 to 40 minutes, I wasn't counting because I was paying attention to every little detail about him. The way his eyes crinkle when he laughs too hard, or the way he gets so nervous when he says something cute, the way his voice cracks a little when he compliments you. Everything about him was so God damned perfect, I couldn't help but fall for him. But I didn't want to ruin anything, so I pushed the thoughts to the back of my head. We soon got to the destination, which I realized was the beach just south of my house. The sun was about to set, and Shawn grabbed a picnic basket out of the back seat. "Come with me, sweatpea." he exclaimed. Gosh he was so weird. His comment made me blush. He held out his hand for me to take, as I took it he pulled me closer. He embraced me in a hug. He was so harm, I never wantefd to let go. We soon stopped walking and he layed a blanket down on the sand. We both sat down, and he pulled out chocolate strawberries. Those were my favorite. "I heard these were your favorite.." He said while blushing. "From who?" I blurted out laughing so hard it sounded like a cackle. "From Lexi. I kinda called her and asked for all the important stuff best friends know." He blushed. "That is so cute, I'm going to cry." I said while looking in my lap. "No need to cry, Jackie. I just wanted this night to be perfect." he softly said while pulling me into a hug. "But, why?" I shyly asked. "Because Jackie. You're perfect. Maybe not to others, but that doesn't matter in my opinon.. And it shouldn't matter in yours either. To he one hundered percent honest with ypu right now, I've had a crush on you since sixth grade. I've just been to chicken shit to ask you out. I didn't think you'd like me back, and you probably don't. But seeing them pick on you today made me realize you need someone to be there for you. And I'm willing to be there for you, even if you don't feel that way about me. I respect that." He softly spoke as a tear rolled down my cheek. He wiped it away and pulled me into another hug. "But Torii told me 'nobody likes a cutter' Shawn. I'm one of them. You can't love me." I said as i sobbed softly. "Woah woah woah. When did she say that?!" He asked in shock. "Today, right before you came to pick me up actually.. I was planning on not telling you, but I guess it slipped..." I replied whimpering. "No, I'm glad you did, so I can get this handled. Jackie, that's one of the many reasons I want to be here for you. I want to help you through this. I knew as soon as I grabbed your wrist this morning at school, that you self harmed. Jackie, I want to help you. I want to love you." he told me in such a gentle and caring way, it made me fall for him even more than before. He slowly wiped away my tears and moved in closer, so close that our noses where touching. He planted one right on my lips. It was so passionate, but I broke the kiss by giggling. Then he planted another sweet kiss on my nose. " So how 'bout them strawberries?" I said breaking the gaze he held on my eyes. "How 'bout 'em." he chuckled with that bright smile once again, and fed me a chocolate covered strawberry, and the rest of the night we just sat there with our fingers intertwined and talked the rest of the night.