The Darkness Within

Panda Troubles

Your POV:

As me and Lavi got to the library, I noticed Bookman sitting at his desk, writing something down in a book. "Hey Bookman!" I smiled cheerfully. Bookman looked up at us with a blank look "I need to speak with you two." He said, standing up. Me and Lavi glanced at each other before sitting down on a couch. Bookman walked over to us "now.. I have told you two multiple times that Bookmen have no need for feelings, and that we are not allowed to become close to others." He said "Yet, you two seem to be very close.". Lavi blinked "its only because I can actually talk to her, since we're both in the same boat. Nobody else would really understand. Its not like we're getting too close to the point that if we had to go separate ways, we couldn't. We're not going out of line." He said, frowning. Bookman scowled "then mind telling me why exactly you took her to your room last night?" He asked. I narrowed my eyes a bit at our teacher "he took me to his room because I had fallen asleep, and he was too tired to take me to my room. His room was closer to the library" I frowned. Bookman looked between us before sighing "this is a warning. I better not catch you two doing that again. I can't afford for you two to throw away all the training you've done" he said. Lavi and I glanced at each other sadly before nodding to him "yes Bookman.." We mumbled. Bookman quietly left the library. Lavi crossed his arms "sheesh. He's such a stubborn old geezer!" He said. I nodded "ya.. I wish he would trust us more... We've been training together for 14 years. You'd think that he would be more trusting of us.." I sighed sadly. Lavi chuckled a bit "well, I don't exactly blame him. I'm pretty damn sexy. Even you could fall for my looks." he grinned cheekily. I rolled my eyes "you wish. I don't want any of your so called 'Lavilious goodness'. I have better things to do than daydream and drool all over you" I smirked as my best friend pouted childishly "but (Name)-chan~! you know you want me~ There's no use in denying it~" He purred as he leaned his face close to mine. I deadpanned and pushed his face away from mine "back away. I can smell your breath." I said. Lavi whined and tried to hug me "Nuu! I wanna love chu!!" He whined childishly. I gently hit him over the head "idiot, shut it otherwise Bookman will come back and kick your ass". I sighed and got up, walking towards the door "I'm heading to the cafeteria. See ya.". Lavi nodded and grabbed a book. I glanced back at him as I got to the door, frowning as I saw him staring down at the unopened book in his hands sadly. 'You always have that sad look.. I want to comfort you, and take you into my arms.. To tell you everything is ok and that I'll always be here for you... But I know that's not true...' I thought sadly before walking out.

I had noticed that about Lavi many times. Whenever he wasn't around others, he would have this sort of sadness in his eyes. Every time I confronted him about it, he would either shrug my worried off, or tell me that I just have mistaken the look on his face. But unlike other people, I knew him better than that. When you spend most of your life learning skills that are specifically for studying and remembering things, you'd spend your extra time studying and remembering things about someone who you had spent all those years with. In my case, that someone was Lavi. I knew almost everything about him. Down to every little gesture and look in his eyes. I could tell when something was wrong. There was only one problem. I knew everything about him on the outside, but all I had ever done in my years of knowing him was scratch his surface. Never once had he let his inner wall down. Not even for me. No matter how much I pushed, he wouldn't budge. I had told him many things about myself. He knew everything about me. From what color of underwear I wear, to exactly when my period started and ended. To him, I couldn't help but become an open book for him to study and read.

That was one of my flaws, and as much as I hated to admit it, I knew that the only reason I couldn't cover myself up, was because it was Lavi. Being around him when I was upset was like one of those dreams when you realise that you're naked, but you can't find clothes no matter how hard you try. Lavi would always find out what was wrong with me.

I headed to the cafeteria, deep in thought about the red headed male, not watching were I was going. I squeaked a bit as I bumped into a strong and hard chest. Looking up, I realised it was the Black Orders famous stoic and cold samurai, Kanda. "Oh, sorry Kanda." I said quickly. Kanda glared at me "watch where you're going next time.." He practically spat at me before walking away. My eye twitched in anger 'stupid pompous pretty boy..' I thought, not realising that I had said my insult out loud. Kanda stopped walking and glared back at me "what the fuck did you just say, you stupid fox..?" He growled. My eyes widened a bit as I realised what I had just said, and I thought to myself;

I'm fucked

Kanda drew his sword and swung it at me, barely giving me enough time to pull my innocence out, and activate it as it turned into a large scythe. I barely managed to block his attack in time. "I'll kill you for what you said, you damned fox..." The dark haired male spat with hatred in his voice. I gulped in fear, knowing that he wasn't going to leave me alone until he beat me to a pulp. My grip started to slip, due to Kanda being stronger than me. He managed to knock my scythe out of my hands, and far away from me. I started dodging his next attacks, being unharmed. I couldn't say the same for my clothes though. My skirt was ripped beyond repair, and my shirt was quite ripped a well. I went to take a step back, but slipped on the smooth floor, falling back. I winced as I hit the ground, closing my eyes tightly as I waited for pain to take over my body. Realising that no pain followed my fall, I slowly opened my eyes. Kanda was staring down at me, his eyes slightly widened. I looked at him in confusion, but my face heated to a bright red as I looked down at myself to realise that my shirt was ripped open in the front. Not only that, but my skirt had been ripped to the point that my panties were showing, and my bra had undergone the abuse that the front of my shirt had gotten as well.

There I was, laying on the ground in front of Yu Kanda, my clothing ripped to shreds, my panties showing, and every bit of my chest showing to him, and anyone who might happen to pass.

Kanda gulped a bit as I covered my chest with my hands while I pressed my legs together, trying to save any dignity that I had left. Kanda was still staring at me in awe, not saying anything. I looked away, my eyes closed tightly in embarrassment. I heard a familiar voice. It sounded angry though. "What the fuck Yu!? You better not have been trying to lay your hands on her!" I opened my eyes to see Lavi glaring at Kanda, his eyes full of rage as he rushed to my side, taking off his jacket and placing it over me. He gently picked me up after putting his coat on me, holding me close to his chest so that nobody could see me. I held onto him tightly. Kanda seemed a bit shocked by Lavi's sudden outburst of anger at him "I... I'm sorry..." He managed to mutter. It was unlike Kanda to ever say something like sorry. Seeing me must have shaken him up a little and made him feel bad for what he had done once Lavi yelled at him. Lavi quickly took me to his room, closing and locking the door. He set me on the side of his bed and kneeled in front of me as he began checking me for wounds, making sure to not look at my chest so that he wouldn't make me uncomfortable. He sighed in relief once he realised that I had no injuries. He gently took me into his arms "are you ok..?" He asked softly. I nodded a bit and hugged back. I had never seen Lavi look this concerned or angry in my life. He let go of me and got me some clothes, helping me out of my own clothes and into his clothes that he had given me. I was quiet as he picked me up and laid on the bed with me, just holding me in his arms.

It felt nice to be in his arms.

Closing my eyes, I fell asleep in his embrace, holding onto him.