Letters- From Hurt to Heal

To the person who broke my heart, unintentionally

Its hard to put my feelings into words but I just can't keep it all together within me, because it is killing me, and I am dying slowly.

I remember the first time we met, I was cheerful and happy and smiling and deep inside I knew I was breaking apart but I still managed to stay happy in front of you. I don't know how you got me, maybe you were too good at reading people, anyhow you did.

Just keeping it short, no matter how hard I tried to push you away, you managed to break my walls and made me fully dependent on you. You managed to break all my walls, opened the door to my heart and got in with all the rights, and I saw it standing in a corner, helplessly.

I thought maybe you were different, maybe you were able to make me feel less unwanted, maybe you were tolerant enough to stay around me, to be there for me, but I guess, I am the kind of mess no one could handle.

I see you everyday in class, and it breaks me apart. Seeing you as a person who is familiar with all my wounds makes me feel like someone who has lost a battle. I have got nothing in my hands now, I feel like a complete loser now. 

Was it necessary for you to break me apart?

(Wrote this last to last month when things were unbearable)