Someone once told me
That they thought they would never be truly happy again
I almost laughed at this
I was amused by how desperate they sounded
As if joy was something you needed to survive
Let me tell you what it's like to lose happiness
At first, you miss it
But like the ex you thought you'd never get over
It stops
You slowly start to forget what it feels like
Why it's so great
You move on, and you continue to exist
You stop feeling like anything is missing
You feel complete without it
Eventually, it all just fades away
And you don't ever want to be happy
The thought of joy scares you
Because it's a dangerous thing
And you've survived without it for so long
You don't want to feel joy again
Just to be stripped of it
It's not worth it anymore
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poems of consciousness
PoetryMy streams of consciousness turned into poems. They aren't great. Just me trying to do something productive with what I write down. Trigger warning
