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chapter 4 the goodbye!!!

A/N here's chapter four the goodbye!!! this chapter will be about the goodbye between Ben and Anthony also in this chapter you found out how it ended between them it might be a short chapter but we see lol. i'm adding a song for this chapter to. (the book of love by Peter gaberiel). please please give me some feed back bout what you think of my books so far my mates gone awol!!! and this one thanks oh please vote hehehe. am so sorry it took me ages to upload but please enjoy p.s. i think this is the saddest chapter i have written to date.

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Ben's pov

I was sitting in my room after school i was watching a film stand by me it reached the point where Chris was in the woods talking to Gordy about the money that was stolen. i hated this parted it always got me every time i choked with tears forming in my eyes when Chris broke down. It brought me back to my situation with Anthony i had no boyfriend i somehow lost the love of my life well i thought he really was, i thought we be together forever but a week ago he destroyed my defences and destroyed my world and torn my heart out and shattered it into piece's. he call me that Thursday evening "Ben i need to see you we need to talk." my body shudders and tears falling even more remembering them words my mind went back to that evening liked it did every day.

flashback!!!

"you need to see me and wh what do you mean we need to talk what do we need to talk about." i said worriedly over the phone. it was silent for a few Min's all i heard was Anthony breathing. "Ant babe talk to me whats going on whats happening." i said more concernedly "i need to talk to you Ben we need to talk meet me at our spot in twenty Min's". he said breaking at the end "are you crying." "no." was all he said i knew he was lying "why are you lying for." i said my voice breaking towards the end. i heard him sobbing down the phone "just meet me please at our place." i heard him choking on his sobs and him crying oh my god before he hanged up on me. i just held my phone to my ear tears forming in my eyes i tried holding them in the best i could. different things were running through my head has he cheated on me after all we had to someone close to him as passed away like his dad or something. apart of me didn't want to go it didn't want to find out just in case it broke my heart and the other part needed to know want was happening why was he crying, my head was fighting my heart at this time and it was winning it made my body move forward with every step.

i made my way to the front door i had my hand on the knob just bout to turn it when my mum came out if the kitchen "were do you think you going at this time of night?" i let go of the knob and turn round i put my head down she came rushing over to me and held my shoulders, she must of seen my tears. "whats up honey why have you me crying." I slowly lifted my head up to meet her gaze "mu mum I don't know whats happening but Anthony wants to talk." I said in a rush. mum gave me a worried look her eyes diving into mime "wants to talk what about".

She asked I just shocked my head slowly "i don't know but what ever it is isn't good because he was crying down the phone mum." my mum just sighed and gave me a kiss on the forehead. "go on I wont tell your dad where you are going and Ben I hope it isn't to bad but what happens we work through it." she said calmly I gave a small smile even though it was really hard with everything in my head. I turned around to open the door I stepped out and walked to my car a blue Toyota. I open the car door and sat at the driver's wheel I look at the front of my house mum was standing in the door frame.

She was trying to hide her worry by smiling I noticed the look of worry because am worrying to bout what Anthony wants to talk about. I let out a breath of anguish my stomach started becoming tight I tried to push everything to the back of my mind. I looked back up from the steering my mum was still standing there. I gave her a weak smile and a wave before pulling out of the driveway. i got on the main road then drove down the street to mine and Anthony's place which we named ours when he brought me there. it was about a ten min drive from my house i pulled up to the car park by the woods i got out of the car and made my way to a hidden dirt track which lead to the place. i started walking down the track, i pulled my phone out then went to a torch app on it to see where i was going as it was pitch black. i walked for about 5 min's or so when i came across an opening in the woods, this place was surrounded by the woods but it was like a mini grassland the was a big log by a stream running through the area. i noticed a figure sitting on one end of the log i walked up to the log and climbed over it to sit next to the figure i looked to my left "hey Anthony." i said softly he didn't respond he just sat there with his head in his arms his shoulders going up and down he looked like he was crying.