Stay with Me (A Niall Horan Fan Fiction)

Chapter 32

I looked up to see Niall standing before me.

“Why are you crying?” He looked worried as his eye-brows furrowed.

“Everything is over Niall; my family has left me all alone by myself. I don’t know what I will do without them. I…. I don’t….” I couldn't complete my sentence as I felt dizzy.

Niall came forward and embraced me in his arms. His strong arms. His hand travelled to my hair as he rubbed it gently. I found serenity even though I was dead inside.

“Everything is gonna be fine now. I’ll make everything fine.” He said as he kissed my hair.

I pulled away and inquired,” Can you?”

“Yes, baby. I will.” He retorted as he cupped my face in both of his palms and forwarded his lips towards my forehead. He slowly kissed me there with his moist lips pressed firmly on the skin of my forehead. I closed my eyes to sink in the feeling.

“I love you, Niall. I love you so much.” I said as my eyes stayed shut.

“I've always loved you.” I emphasized my feelings when I felt the absence of his touch from my cheeks.

I opened my eyes to find that he is gone. More tears welled up in my eyes.

“Niall? Where did you go? Please don’t leave me. I love you so much. Come back, please come back. You’re my only person in this whole world.” I cried and cried as I knelled down again on both of my knees on the field.

 

“Nooo….” I screamed louder as I got up from my sleep.

My forehead and neck was sweating as I tried to grasp for breath. I looked to my left to see the outside through the balcony and realized that it’s morning. I grabbed the water bottle from the night-stand and gulped down some water.

It was that dream again rather nightmare.

It was the third time that this horrific nightmare came back to me. I saw it first time the night I confessed my feelings to Niall and then again last week when Niall spent the night with me at my apartment. He asked me about the dream but I couldn't tell him and get into a complicated discussion early in the morning. I guess I have become a little escapist these days.

Dreams or nightmares are always hard to analyse. Psychology says that it reflect the innermost thoughts of one’s mind that lies only in the unconscious stage. However, I wasn't able to deduce my nightmare’s meaning in any way. It featured my family’s death which was a reality and I knew as well as accepted that in every stages of my mind. The other part relating to Niall suddenly disappearing after I tell him that I love him also seemed pretty unusual. I mean, it made a little sense before when I was holding myself back from confessing it to him but why now? He loves me too and he didn't escape after I said him about my feelings.

Ahhhh…..who cares? It was just a nightmare…..

I jerked off the musings about the nightmare and dragged myself out of the bed. I checked from my mobile that it’s 10.45 Am. My eyes became wide-apart and mouth wide-open as I ran to the bathroom. I peed, brushed my teeth and then took a shower. On coming out I quickly slipped into my blue jeans and a pink colored top. I arranged my books, copy, pens, mobile and purse and dumped them inside my bag. I rushed to the kitchen and grabbed a bowl from the utensils’ rack along with a spoon. I was about to draw the cereal’s box from the upper cabinet when my eyes fell on the wall clock.

11.00 Am? I can’t have breakfast now.

I kept the bowl and spoons back to the rack and fetched the biscuits jar from the upper cabinet instead. I fetched two biscuits from it and left the kitchen. I grabbed my keys from the centre table as I chewed the biscuits which I put in my mouth at once. I wore my shoes and was about to leave when I remembered something. I ran to my room without bothering to open my shoes again and opened the drawer of the night-stand at the left side of my bed. It contained a medium sized gift. It was the Ray farer shades that I ordered from Flipkart.com last week for Niall. It was delivered yesterday right after I returned home from college. The actual date of arrival was today but I was quite impressed with their early delivery and careful handling of the item. I even went out to a nearby gift shop in my neighborhood yesterday and bought a blue wrapping paper. At night I wrapped the shades that were inside a leather bag with the wrapping papers.