Almost

I remember I was invited at a party of my friend when I started drinking. It was also the day I met you. I was drinking a bottle of beer alone when I saw you walking and sat beside me. You talked to me and so we talked to each other. We talked as if we were friends before and we're both drunk that night. We often meet each other after that night. You'll talk to me when you feel down and no one to talk to. You're a quiet person and does not talk that much. Unless I'll talk to you, you'll tell me so many things that you don't share to other people even your friends. You'll always tell me everything even those little things that don't matter, only when I ask you. You were such a shy person, I didn't even think you were that shy because you didn't approach me the way you were that night.

Years passed by, we became close. You often come to my house for my cooking. You told me you loved my dishes that I always cook. Whenever you're sick, you'll ask me to come to your house to take care of you. And when I don't feel well, you'll come to my house and take care of me until I feel well. We've been like that for years. Were those things only done by friends? I don't even think you'll have feelings for me. And I never hope if you'll have.

One night, we drank together. I didn't mind how many bottles we finished that night. I didn't even remember what happened the whole night. All I remember was we're both at the backyard drinking bottles of beers as if we're both wasted about our lives. It was already dawn when we finished. After drinking, we talked to each other and still at the backyard. You seemed so serious as if you're going to tell something very risky. You looked at me seriously. You told me that you loved me. You told me that you fell in love with me but you don't want to tell me those things before because we might destroy our relationship as friends. You cried and I saw how serious you were that night telling me you even want to marry me soon. I don't know how to respond. You cried so hard until you hugged me and asked me not to go. I was planning to go abroad and work there but I have to. I left you alone at the backyard.

After that night, I finished what I needed in order to prepare for my flight going to Canada. It was my dream to go there. I worked there as an accountant at a company I've been dreaming to work at. I stayed there for almost 5 years. I felt old but then things happen as what happened. I decided to go back home when a friend invited me to go at her wedding. I prepared enough for that wedding because she's been waiting for it.

The wedding day has come. I still have no idea who was the groom. The wedding march has started. I noticed someone familiar in front. Why does it hurt seeing that someone in front? I noticed it was you. I wasn't in myself the past days that's why I didn't notice the name because your name is so common. I thought maybe it wasn't you but you were there waiting for the bride. As the bride walks by, I noticed my tears fell and so I went outside and went home. There are things in life you shouldn't waste. You'll regret it someday