New! (Taehyung ff) No Time

Taehyung's POV - Eight

I have walked the streets of Seoul many times. Walking on a damp sidewalk, soaking my shoes in mud puddles. Cars driving passed, their turning tires bringing up water and more mud.
This time was the same. I wore my signature black hoodie, hood over my head. My music blasted all the way up on my mp3. My once white high tops that I had snatched from a dumpster on the other side of town were now brown. My black jeans were ripped in random places and my black T-shirt was stained in so many places with dirt and mud and other, much worse substances.
I couldn't stop thinking about tonight. I did this all the time, but that didn't stop my heart from aching every time.  I felt empty this morning as the rain fell over me. Soaking me. But I didn't care. I just kept walking.

I couldn't feel the cold, damp air. I couldn't even hear the blasted music. It was just me and my thoughts. Little demons teasing me. Taunting me inside. It was hard to describe. But I've had these things since I can remember. Little reminders of all the horrible things I've done. And for what? Just so I can have a place to live? Gosh! I was so selfish it made me sick. I was hurting others so that I could gain. I was no better than Eddie. A monster. A curse.
My head started to ache. The music, the thoughts, and now the tears falling over my frozen cheeks. I didn't consider crying making me less of a man. Because it didn't. It released pressure. As if the tears carried the thoughts away. It worked temporarily, but never for long periods of time.

It was Saturday. So school wasn't an issue today. Yes I was intelligent, but that didn't make me enjoy school. In fact, it made me curse it's name.
I could be a regular being of society, yet I choose this life.
I'm the one that agreed to Eddie's offer all those years ago. I'm the one that was too much of a pussy to run away. I was the one who had yet to go to the police. It was all me.
I went inside a café and sat at a table by myself. I asked for coffee from a tall waiter, and stared out the window at the rain.

I then pulled out my sketchbook from inside my sweater and began to draw. I didn't even know what I was drawing at first. Then I realized I was drawing a girl. A beautiful girl. She must be in my memory somewhere.

Wait...I know who that is! That's the girl I was teasing at school! But, why did I have the urge to draw her? Hell she was beautiful. Beyond beautiful. But she looked better in reality, not on paper. Her flamming red hair, her aquatic blue eyes. Her full elegant lips. Everything was perfect. Her face was the only place where two totally different things could live in peace. She was perfect. But her looks didn't define the person she was. I knew that. But it was all I knew about her. I didn't know her favourite colour, or her favourite place to eat, or even if she has weird fetish's! I was determined to get to know this girl. I would wait until Monday at school, and go from there.

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Eddie told me to wait for her here. So I did just that. I sat on a bench outside her supposed apartment, waiting.
Why was I doing this? Ugh! Stupid, stupid.
Moments after my self argument a girl walked out from the apartment. She was just as Eddie described. Short, curvy. I didn't know how old she was. Her hood was over her head to keep out the cold from the mornings rain. The streetlights didn't even light her face at this time of night.
I stood abruptly and marched silently towards the girl, grabbing her arm.
I turned her quickly before she could react and put her arms behind her back. My grip probably tighter than comfortable.
"No talking. I'm taking you somewhere, understand?" I kept as much character as possible from my voice. I surprised myself for a second. I sounded completely dead.
I receive a slight nod from the girl, and I was off. Taking this girl to turn a potential nightmare into a reality.