Hopeless Hopes

Introduction

Introduction

It's October 3rd, 1833.

I will never forget this day. I am ten years old sitting on a hard, cold bench. My eyes are blurred with constant tears. I turn my head to look up at Ma. She doesn't cry, she's just staring at the coffin. Why isn't Ma crying?

Ten Years Later ~~~~~~~

Its October 3rd, exactly ten years after my Pa died. It's never been the same. That same day we packed and left our home, to where we now live; a small house with one room. On the edge of town, not to close to society, but that's okay since we aren't rich and cant attend those balls anyways.

America was a fair place; I loved the foggy mornings, cold and bitter. I could feel my heart harden with each day. Working the farm the next town over, taking care of Ma, keeping the house up- it was slowly engulfing me. But the thought of hope,- love makes my heart melt over. One day I would fall in love and nothing else would matter. Just like Ma and Pa. They fell in love at seventeen, ran away and got married against their parent's wishes.

I want a love like that- where nothing in the world matters except for each other.

I bend down to kiss the stone cold tablet.

John Meilick 1802-1832

Loving Brother, Husband, and Father.

A tear trickled down my cheek.

I miss you Pa. I whisper to myself. I get up and straighten out my dress, placing the rose on his stone.

I return back home and get to bed; tomorrow was going to be a long day.

I have to stop by the market in town first thing in the morning. Then I have to visit Mary. Once I return I'll have to start on the washing, the pile was big and I needed to make money. It will be late into the night when I will return home. I need to prepare some meals for Ma while I'll be gone all day. I hate leaving her like this alone, but I have to make money for us.