Failure At Love

The heart of the broken

~Bakugo's POV~

    Today was the wedding. The day I was dreading most has finally come. I wipe my swollen eyes and lazily get out of bed. On a hanger, the first outfit in the closet, was a suit. The suit I would wear to the wedding. A wedding in which I'd dreamed of for as long as I could remember. Except only one thing was different, he was marrying him, not me.

   ~Time skip~

    I dreadfully force myself to walk up the stairs. "Kacchan! You're late!" Shit. The last person I wanted to run into. I feign happiness as I turn and face Deku. "Sorry, I didn't hear my alarm go off." I lie. Deku gets close and stares into my eyes. "Kacchan...are you ok?" Deku asks, concern written across his face. I become painfully aware of his beautiful features as he stares up at me. "I-" I began to say but cut myself off as Todoroki walks over and wraps an arm around Deku's waist. "Hello Bakugo." He says cooly, his expression blank as always. It pissed me off. "Tch." I shove my hands in my pockets and walk off.
   "Kacchan!" I hear Deku call, I almost turn around. "He'll be fine, just focus on the wedding." I begin to pick up my pace. I wanted to scream, I was so angry. I wanted to explode something, I was so angry. I wanted to beat up someone or something, I was so angry. I was so angry I could just- warm liquid slowly fell from my eyes. "Why? Even though I told myself I could handle it? Why?" I angrily clutch at my chest as an unbearable pain throbbed. Jealousy, sadness, envy, desire, anger. All emotions I thought I could control poured out all at once, all to unbearable to handle. I silence my sobs as I walk, head held down.
    I bump into someone causing me to fall forwards on top of them. I open my eyes to find a familiar face under me. "K-k-kacchan?! You- you were crying?! Why?" Deku asks. I get up and extend a hand to him helping him up. "You wouldn't understand." I say walking into the bathroom. "Kacchan! Wait!" Deku manages to squeeze into the bathroom before I close the door. "I want an explanation. It's my wedding day and I can't be happy knowing that your sad!" Deku says, tears forming in his big green eyes. "Deku...I can't ok? I'm- I'm on the verge of breaking." My voice cracks. I take a deep breath, to try and calm myself. "Please go before I do or say anything I'll come to regret later."I manage to keep my voice steady, although I can feel myself shaking. "Kacchan... I'm here for you, if-if something is wrong...please," he pleads," please, please, tell me." He tenderly touches my cheek. His hand is soft and warm.

~Deku's POV~

   Kacchan is silent. It pains me to see him so sad. I place a hand on his cheek. It's cold and wet with tears. I look up at him. I now realize that his eyes are red and puffy, as if he had been up crying all night. Without thinking, I wrap my arms around him feeling like it was something I should do. I breathe in his scent. He smelled of strawberry scented shampoo, something which suited him. Kacchan finally relaxes and places his head on my shoulder. "Deku- I....you." Kacchan whispers in my ear. I freeze. What was he saying? And why had he chose now as the time to tell me?
    There's a knock on the bathroom door. The door opens and Todoroki's head pops in. Kacchan lifts his head and backs away. "It's almost time." Todoroki says and then leaves, his expression unchanging. "Kacchan I-" He shakes his head. "I don't need an answer, in fact I had planned to tell you after we graduated high school, but that guy got to you first." Kacchan gives a weak smile and leaves.
   I lean back against the wall and allow myself to slide to the ground. I burry my face in my hands. Kacchan had been my first love. I had tried many times to tell him how I felt, but it just came out as jumbled nonsense. The day Todoroki proposed to me, I had made up my mind to give up on Kacchan and to try loving him with my whole heart. Now there was no way I could walk down the aile and say that the one I love is Todoroki.