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am I going crazy????????????

Idk

I saw a few ants in my room and ever since I've been paranoid
I constantly feel like ants are crawling all over me and I could have sworn one went in my ear

It's torture becuz then I cant sleep at night for fear they'll be there

And then there's times I can't even control my own body
Like I'll think I'll do one thing and then it goes off and does something else

Also my great great grandma's funeral was this morning and it was in a Catholic church becuz she was Catholic.
And idek for the entire thing I couldnt change expression and I was stuck in my head and I didn't say one thing unless spoken to and even then sometimes not.

And then I keep skipping in time or things will teleport. I'll be somewhere talking to someone and something will move or I'll randomly be talking about a different subject with that person a few minutes later even tho only a few seconds ago-
Ugh I suck at explaining

Buuut
I'll keep going

I hear stuff and see things that I know aren't there but feel and sound so real.

I get ringing in either one of my ears randomly and it goes on for almost a minute. And often the ear ringing takes place before something bad happens and hhhhh it scares me when I get it

At times it feels like I'm in a dream because I feel so light headed and nothing makes sense

Theres more and I'll list it in the comments if I can remember it

But
I'm pretty sure almost everyone in my family has at least one mental illness, and my grandma has even been in an asylum.
So it's not unlikely that I might