Just An Ordinary Girl

I hate you, I love you

*1 year later*

I was in Dominicks office, "So B, I have a surprise for you!! You have been nominated for top singer at the  MPVs. They told me they wanted you to perform one of your songs, oh and it's in 3 days so get going!" I waved and went to my house. It was quiet, it's been like that since Alya left, it was all his fault, she didn't deserve this, he would of not of gotten drunk. I tear slipped down my eye. I wiped it quickly and went through my song book. I dicited to sing I hate you, I love you. I said that song with Ganash. I went to the mall and got a dress.

*Two Days later*

Today was the day of the MPVs. I got up and took a shower. I got out and dryed my hair. I put my dress on and then curled my hair. I grabbed my purse and went to Dominicks house to talk. I got into my uber and thought. I havnt seen Ethan or Grayson in a year. What if they were there?? Questions went around in my mind. Then I got into his house, we talked until it was time to go. I got there and the photographers were already taking photos. I was wearing gold long sleeve dress.

My smile faded when I saw Ethan with another girl. I smiled again, I walked inside and took my seat. After Taylor Swift sang it was my turn, I changed into a black romper.

I got into stage and then the music started to play.

Feeling used
But I'm
Still missing you
And I can't
See the end of this
Just wanna feel your kiss
Against my lips
And all this time
Is passing by
But I can't seem to tell you why
It hurts me every time i see you
Realize how much I need you

I hate you, I love you
I hate that I want you
You want her, you need her
And I will never be her

I miss you when I can't sleep
Or right after coffee or right when I can't eat, I miss you in my front seat, sand in out sweaters from nights we don't remember
Do you miss me like I miss you
Fucked around and got attached to you, friends can break your heart too, but I'm always tired but never of you

I hate you, I live you
I hate that I want you
You want her you need her
And I will never be her

All alone I watch you watch her
Like she's the only girl you ever see
You don't care you never did
You don't give a damn about me
Yea all alone I watch you watch her
She's the only thing you ever see
How is it you never notice
That you are slowly killing me

I don't mean no harm
I just want you in my arms
Wedding bells are just alarms
Caution tape around my heart

I hate you, but I love you

*end of song*

That's when I couldn't hold it any more, I cried, I saw Ethan look at me, I turned around and ran to my dressing room. I got changed into my dress again and then fixed my makeup. I walked out and sat next to Cameron Dallas. I stayed quiet, then it ended and I ran out the doors, then I felt a hand grab my arm. I turn around to see Ethan. I closed my eyes and hopping when I opened them it was all a dream. But when I opened then he was still there.

"I....i...im sorry" he managed to say.
I looked at him, I grabbed his hand and shoved it off. I ran to my car and locked my doors. I drove and drove until I heard boom. Then everything turned black.

I woke up but I couldn't move nor speak or open my eyes. The I heard a voice, "it's all my fault" Ethan repeated. Then my heart monitor went faster, all I wanted to do was kiss him and tell him it's all ok. Then I opened my eyes and shot up. My mouth opened and before I could say anything Ethan kissed me. I was so passionate.