Let me be yours

Can't show weakness - Chapter One

Hey guys,this is my new story,I hope you'll like it and I would like to hear your opinions. I used to write another story but I'm not really liking it so I stopped writing it. Anyway now I'm focused on this one so I hope you'll like it ;-)

Enjoy :)

I finally wiped my tears of and then sighed keeping my eyes closed.

I slowly and quietly opened the door. And there she was. My mother. She was still laying in her hospital bed with those hospital pijamas (or whatever they're called) on.

How can someone who used to be so happy and cheerfull become so weak? Of course...The disease.

Since she was diagnosed 8 months ago she's been fighting and torturing herself.  Her eyes were so red and she had  bags.She was so paled,her skin was as white as milk. Her beautiful wavy blond hair was long gone.

She seemed like she's gonna falter,but she can't do that. 

I was looking at her like that and my eyes were tearing. Suddenly she moved her head and groaned. I wiped my watery eyes when I saw she's waking up. She glanced at me and smiled. I forced a smile too.

"Did you sleep well?"

- I said smiling at her.

"Yes. What did you do? Did you go to school?"

"Yeah."

- I said trying to make it believable,but it was such an obvious lie,I don't go to school anymore. I won't leave my mom alone in the hospital. Specially because she has no one else. She ran away from home when she was a teenager to mary the bastard that is unfortunately my father. But he left her alone two years after when I was few months old. They're not even divorced. We never heard from him or about him again. She couldn't go back to her parents because she was too proud to do it,she has never seen them again either. She misses them,I know. She had a brother too,he lives in Chicago,so we live in the same town,but she says she hasn't seen him.

It has been hard the last 8 months,school year is almost finishing and I haven't been to school like who knows since when. I missed more than two thirds of classes,so I'll probably fail. I don't know what's gonna happen to me but mom is most important now.

"Bella..." 

- I heard my mom's voice and looked at her. 

"Mhm?"

- I said and tried to fake happy-face but as usual it didn't work. 

"I'll be okay."

- She said stopping her tears and put her hand on mine and I squeezed it tight.I felt that 'warm' feeling in my eyes when tears are coming up.

"Don't." 

- She said in heartbreaking voice and stroked my cheek to wipe my tears. I didn't say or do anything. I looked down. My vision was getting blurry because of the tears. I'm going to be strong in front of her. At least I can do is pretend. She spread her arms and hugged me close to her.  . . . . .

I don't know when but I fell asleep. Next to my mom.I felt someone shaking my shoulder.

I opened my eyes and looked. It was mom's doctor Mr. Brown. 

"Bella,get up. I should really talk to you." 

- He whispered to me and I slowly moved away from my mom's hug trying not to wake her up.

"Come with me."  

- The doctor aka John Brow said when he woke me up.We went to his office,my heart was beating. I was hoping that at least for once,this time it's good news.