Let me be yours

It's too late for making things right - Chapter five

Will's POV

After my daily chat with my dad I left his room and went for a walk. I was about to step in the elevator when I heard loud crying.

I follow the sound of it. It led to unexpected scene. I saw Bella crying her butt off and an elderly woman was holding her. That woman was crying too. I approached and saw her mom in the bed covered with a white sheet.

 Bella was still crying and I was just looking. I wish I could do something about it.

"I'm sorry for your loss." I said as I knelt down to her head level. I put my hand on her shoulder and she pushed it away. I stood up and took few steps back. I felt like crying for her. Instead of her. If she continues she'll have a headache. I can't believe myself how much do I really care about her with no apparent reason. She's just a prostitute. No one to me !

Then again...I can't believe myself of what do I think about her on the day of her mom's death. She's devastated. It breaks my heart and I can't explain it.

Bella's POV

I can't believe how many people came to the funeral. Where were they while she was dying ?! Why are they coming now ?!

Even Mrs.Harris and some random kids from my school that aren't even my friends (of course,I don't have any) came today. The only good thing is that all of them apologized to me in person about everything. I didn't answer to any of them. I was silent. Even uncle Derek came. And his wife too. Why am I calling him uncle ? He hasn't even shown before. He's sorry he didn't come. I can see it. Well as in for me,he can drown in guilt!

The funeral finished and now I don't know where to go. Should I go home? Will I live alone starting from now ? Do I have to get a job? How will I pay all the bills? I don't have any money with me. 

"I'm going home now." I say to my grandma when the guests left.

"Where do you think you'll be going?" She said grabbing my wrist and stopping me.

"Home."

"No you're not.You're going with us,you can't be alone in that house." She practically ordered me. I didn't really get used to people telling me what to do.

"Can and will."  I say pulling my wrist out of her hands and leaving.

I saw we have mail. Just some bills I can't pay,warning to pay the bills some fashion catalog and a letter from New York. From Jack Ryan,my dad. This is his 4th letters in 16 years. Wow,he must really care - I thought sarcasticly. I entered the apartment and read it standing.

"Jessica,it's me again. I hope you're reading my letters.I heard you're sick,you have cancer. When I got that news I felt so bad and I was devastaded. I really hope you'll beat it,you're stronger than it. If you need money for operation I'd be more than happy to send as much as you ask. I want you to get better,and I want that from my heart. Bella is graduating this year,I'm really proud  I can't believe she's going to college. If she needs anything just tell me. And I hope you're not hiding these letters from her. I want her to look for me one day. I want to meet her.I'll come to her graduation,I need to see her. If you want tell her,if you don't don't,but I'll come no matter what. Hope you'll get better. Love Jack."

I cried while reading it. I leaned on the door and cried. It's a bit too late dad isn't it?

- I fell asleep on the couch when I heard a doorbell. I woke up,rubbed my eyes and stood up. It was uncle Derek. I opened the door in annoyance. It was night so it was dark I barely saw anything.

"Hi." He awkwardly greets  me and steps inside. "Why don't you turn on the lights?" He asked trying to turn it on but he couldn't of course,because we don't have electricity here anymore.