Fucking hell I swear my mind is becoming more and more fucked up.
I keep having weird ass dreams. But they do not feel like dreams at fucking all they are so realistic. It is starting to get scary. my brain likes to take my fears and turn them into desires. Or wake me up in my head but not physically. I swear I'm going insane sometimes I see things that aren't there in real life. or I do the complete opposite of what I think I'm doing. I don't want to hurt anyone....but I think at some point I might. I don't want to tell my friends because they probably won't believe me or will laugh at me...
Am I really going crazy? I don't want to break again, I don't want to make my friends afraid of me or hurt them. But I fear my inner demons are slowly taking over me once more. I do not know how long it will take, or what it will take for me to finally snap again....but i know what ever i do I have to keep my friends safe I can't hurt them again I might lose them forever this time.
