Shocked I stand frozen in the door way and look at the shivering children, both clinging on to each other scared that I might turn them away. I quickly get my thoughts together and usher them inside. I took them to the couch and had them sit down while I went to find some kind of snack they could eat. All I had in the cabinets were some fruit bars I usually took to work with me so I pulled down the box and took 2 out, a long with some glasses of water and headed back to the couch.
"Hi" was all I could manage to get out as I sat on the opposite couch, my emotions literally suffocating me from saying anymore. The little boy smiled and gave me a shy wave, the little girl didnt budge, she just looked at me with a fear I haven't seen since Fred. Her beautiful brown eyes looked on the brim of tears, as I slowly rised from the couch and walked over to them. And within 2 seconds I had those beautiful babies in my arms. I gently rubbed their heads and consoled them as we all sat and cried. I felt like I was in a dream. How could it be that my babies had found me! How did they get here! And whose head will I have to take for allowing them to run away with no type of protection!
2 minutes turned into hours and the two were finally asleep. I gently picked up the little boy and placed him on the other couch with a pillow and blanket, and then did the same with the other. I watched as there heavy breathing turned into gently snores and the adorable rise and fall of their chests. He looks like me, I keep thinking...the messy brown hair, the nose, and his gentle eyes. It's like I'm looking at a younger male version of myself. She however favored both of us she had my mouth and eyes, but she had his hair and his facial structure just gentler. Just looking at them had my heart beating a mile a minute, and my eyes growing heavy with tears. Never in a million years did I think that this day would come and here it is. But why under these conditions!?
My mind continued to wander to Sean and to how badly I wished I was able to call him. To just be here with him and listen to his soothing voice tell me that everything was gonna be okay, that tomorrow we'll sort everything out. But after today's chain of events I dont think that'll happen, so I climb onto the reclining chair and slowly drifted to sleep.
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*beep beep beep beep*
I wake up to my alarm going off, I pick my phone up off the table and check the time. 7:00am. I start to put my phone back down when it hit me.
"I'm late for work!"
I quickly shoot out of the chair and began to run up the stairs. Then I heard the faintest of sounds and turned around to see the little girl watching me. I take a slow, deep breath and I walk back down the stairs.
"Good morning beautiful" I said as I ran my hand through her hair. "You hungry?" She gave me her biggest smile and nodded at me. So I went to the kitchen and pulled out some eggs and waffles and started cooking. The smell must have awoken the boy up because as soon as I finished putting everything on a plate he wandered into the kitchen slowly rubbing his crusted eyes. I quickly grabbed a wet paper towel and cleaned his face for him and then gave him his plate. We ate in silence at the table none of us knowing what to say to the other.
"I'm Victoria" the little girl muffled with a waffle still stuck in here mouth. "Henry says your our mom, and that your gonna keep us. Are you?" I damn near choked on my waffle, she finally spoke and this time to me. I started to answer when I was cut off from the ringing of my phone. I check the caller ID to see that it was Adam one of the creators. I excuse myself from the table and walk into the living room.
"Hello?" He said more as a question than a greeting.
"Yea, I'm here Adam"
"Is everything alright, your an hour late and you didnt say that you were sick or anything?"
"I know and I'm soo sorry, but something unexpected happened last night and I'm trying to figure it all out"
Henry quietly walks into the room and calls out for me. "Mommy" he says as he tries to lick the syrup off his fingers.
"Mommy!?" Adam gasps into the phone. "Lana what aren't you telling me?"
In that moment I decide to tell Adam everything, about Fred, the divorce, and my kids. He tells me that's it's okay and to be there in the next 2hours so I rush the kids upstairs and give them a nice warm bath. I wash and dry their clothes and get them dressed so that I can shower. Once I'm dressed and hair has been done, we get on our shoes and head out. The car ride to set was quite interesting, I learned so much about the 2. Henry likes to read and write stories about dragons, and witches, and prince, and princesses. Hes definitely going to love being on set with us. And Victoria likes to draw and sing. She has quite the voice on her too!
We finally pull onto set and the kids guack at all the costumes and people. I laugh as Henry starts storytelling about the people he sees. Hes gonna be one hell of a writer I think to myself as I park the car. The kids and I get out of the car and start to head in the direction of the studio.
When I open the door everyone's head turns and looks at us. My kids hide behind me just as terrified as I am of all the eyes piercing through us. I look up and catch his eye, he looked confused and hurt, I look back down and continued to walk into Adam's office.
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I watch as she walks in with 2 little shadows gripping on to her pants leg and peeking from behind her butt. I stare at her hoping that she'll look up and when she does, we lock eyes. She looked ashamed and hurt. I wish I could have just ran up to her and hugged her but I was frozen in place. She looked back down and walked to go speak to Adam.
As soon as her head disappeared I let out a breath that I didnt even know I was holding. I find a chair and just start thinking. I can hear some of the extras and the directors talking but I'm not listening. I cant listen. Josh comes up to me but doesnt say anything, he just pats my back and walks to his trailer. Eddie tells everyone to go back to their trailers and take a break but I dont budge. My mind still trying to rack around the news. A part of me wants to be mad at her and the other wants to just hold her forever.
About an hour passed by and Lana finally walked out the office doors. She didn't say anything she just keep walking, the kids right on her heels. I tryed to read to expression on her face but it just stayed blank. I finally find my will to move and follow her out the main doors. I call out to her but she ignores me and continues to walk to her trailer. This time I let her go, not wanting to make the situation worse. I continued to just watch her. And didnt stop until they all disappeared. Then I slowly turned around and walked backed to mine.
