I can start to feel my eyes swell with tears; as I know it is coming to an end. I get out of the car and run to my bedroom. I see words on my screen "it's not you it's me I think we're better off as friends". I tried to fight by saying "no that's not what I want "him saying back "its for the best". By this time I'm crying even harder and throwing myself across the room. Repeating the words to myself telling myself it was all my fault. I call my sister crying she comes to pick me up and we go to dinner. Later that night he texted me I say "what do you want" he replied "I think we need to talk about this". At this very moment I want to start crying but I'm able to hold back my tears. We begin to talk; by the text messages I'm sending he can tell I'm mad but sad, and I'm yelling through them. The next day at school I act like their is nothing wrong I was trying to seem happy about it. Inside my heart was broken. He wanted to talk but I wanted to scream. He came to me after class and said "text me after school" After school I text him he told me the reasons he dumped me. I started to cry. One of them was because he liked on of my best friends. I'm so mad by I don't know what to do at that time I began to think about suicide, but I know I could never do that and it was dumb. Two days later he was able to move on; by dating someone new. I was crushed. It wasn't that he moved it was that he was able to do it so fast. We were together for a year, and he cold move on with in two days. Four days then she dumped him he wasn't fazed at all. We went on and was just starting to accept he wasn't mine anymore. Then he came up to me and asked me to take him back. I said I need time to think. My answer was going to be yes then he said he was kidding. Once again when I got home I ran to my bedroom and began to cry. By now another month has past. I started to like someone new, but he was always in the back of my mind. I asked out the new guy the one I started to like, but it was weird I didn't love him and I knew I never could. I went to a party with my new boyfriend and it was at the old boyfriends house. Though the night I noticed him staring at me. Later I when I get home I noticed a texted on my phone from him saying "are you still up". I don't respond till the morning. I begin by saying "did you text me by accident" He said "no". He began to tell me how he still had feelings for me; knowing this I was filled with joy. He also said he liked three other people and couldn't decide who he liked the most. I know all the people he liked beginning to cry. I tried to be as nice as I could to him, but by now I'm just done with him I will always love him. He was the one who left I need to remember that. I need to accept that I'll never be with him again when I lost him I lost my best friend and the best part of me.
