Why have I lied to myself for so long.
Who am I really?
When have I actually considered how I feel?
Made decisions based on me and not to another.
Indulged in my self for once.
I dont even know who I am anymore or have I ever?..
I've cheated myself so much,
copied so much,
"what would he/she would do" so much,
given so much,
"he/she deserves this, not me" so much,
toughened up so much
but I never found me, my soul, my heart, my passion, my being.
Who am I?
Im tired of being an anaglamation of different people..
I want to be me.
I want to move for me.
Live for me.
Be down for me.
How can I live as someone else for the rest of my life?
I can't.
Im tired of it.
I want to have my own opinion not think of what would someone else do.
I want to have intelligence based on how I FEEL along with REAL FACTS.
I want express myself right, me.
Not be locked into what's "trendy".
Hopefully sooner or later Ill become me, and not another.
Less worldly, but more real.
