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Goodbye

Posted: March 25, 2018

Requested?: Yup

Words: 1.1k

Group: Idol Producer

Member(s): Ruibin

A/N: Thanks for requesting! I hope this is okay and I know the show hasn't ended yet, but let's just say Ruibin does make it at the end...Also, I've been wanting to write some angst recently, but I feel like I'm not very good at it lol, but ye hope you enjoy! :')

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Looking down, you fiddle with your dress, a nervous habit you have picked up. Being scolded is never a good feeling especially when it's for being caught doing something you aren't supposed to be doing. You bow and your CEO excuses himself, leaving you by yourself in the room. You weakly make your way to the door that had just been slammed closed. You grab the handle but slide down against the door, the tears prickling your eyes finally spilling out.

However, you know that it is your responsibility to deal with. Being a famous idol really isn't easy. You knew all the conditions and restrictions your job would have on your personal life. In fact, your CEO had actually let a lot of the terms go just for you because you have proven yourself early on in your career.

The CEO had even let you date, but his only condition is to never let anyone know. You and Ruibin have been dating for a few years now. After years of careful planning and trying your best to hide your relationship, it had unfortunately failed. The two of you have relaxed a little, used to the routines. However, apparently, you haven't been used to it enough. You had been a little more reckless this time and got caught by a fan. The news was all over the internet within a few minutes.

You let out a few whimpers as you place your head into your hands before beginning to sob. Hoping that you wouldn't be heard, you curl into a small ball, attempting to muffle your cries. Suddenly, you hear a few knocks. You quickly wipe away your tears, sniffling a little and open the door. To your surprise, it is Ruibin.

"W-what are you doing here?" you ask with a shaky voice.

"Hey, I'm sorry about all of this," Ruibin says in a quiet voice, shuffling to you and closing the door behind him.

"It's not your fault, it was mine," you sigh.

Ruibin takes you into his warm embrace, patting your head gently. You let your tears pour out again, no longer able to hold them back anymore. You wrap your arms around Ruibin's tall frame, finding comfort in it.

"Hey look, it was both of our faults. We should've been a little more careful," Ruibin kisses your forehead after he pulls away from the hug.

"I just...I'm so sorry," you wipe more tears away.

Ruibin reaches for the box of tissues and holds it out to you. You take a couple of tissues and wipe your tears away, but more keep coming out. Giving up on drying your face, you take Ruibin's hand into your own shaky one.

"No, it's okay...you're shaking..." Ruibin frowns.

"Ruibin," you look at his hand and intertwine your fingers with his, "did the CEO tell you anything?"

"Oh, no...I know he just talked to you though. He passed by me, but just shook his head," a bit of confusion is clear in his voice.

"Oh, um..." you refuse to make eye contact with Ruibin, unsure of where to start.

"What is it?" now you can hear a bit of fear and insecurity in Ruibin's voice.

After a moment of silence, you finally speak up," We need to break up."

Ruibin doesn't say anything and you finally look up at him. His eyes are beginning to water and his lips are sealed into a tight frown. His perfect brows are furrowed, his pupils shaking. His mouth forms a small 'o'. He forces himself to smile, the tears finally coming out.

"Ah, I see. That's understandable," Ruibin chuckles, his voice wavering.

"Ruibin, I didn't want to..." you shake your head vigorously, trying to keep your own tears in.

"It's fine, I understand," Ruibin is clearly crying now.

"No, I–" you reach up to wipe away his tears.

"It's fine," Ruibin says a little more firmly this time.

"I'm sorry," you whisper.

"M-maybe we could find another way? Or, we could just take a break...o-or we can just pretend we're not–" Ruibin frantically spits out ideas.

"We can't," you softly cut him off, "We still have your career to consider. You might be debuting soon, we can't ruin your job too."

"Why?" Ruibin begins, "Why can't we just try something?"

"Ruibin, please," you beg.

"No, y/n, why? Do you not like me anymore?" Ruibin sniffs.

"Ruibin, stop! You know that I still love you very much, I just...it's for the best," you sigh.

You bite your lips and look up at Ruibin again. You can see the fight in him had left completely. A part of you is yelling at yourself to stop, but you know it's for the best. The expression he is making makes you want to just wrap your arms around him, to reassure him that everything is okay.

"Ruibin, say something," you whisper.

"Fine, it's fine. I'm sorry that this happened. I still love you, but if it's for the best..." Ruibin shakes his head, turning away, "Goodbye, y/n."

You look at your feet, trying to keep the tears in as Ruibin slams the door close after stomping out the room. Your vision begins to blur from the tears. You open the door, only to see Ruibin's retreating form. The sight finally brings out the tears again.

"Goodbye, Ruibin."

—

"Congratulations to Zheng Ruibin for making it into 9th place!" Yixing announces.

You watch Ruibin's cheery face appear on screen, a small smile on your own face. It had been almost half a year since you had broken up with him. You chuckle as Ruibin tears up a little while making his speech.

"Finally, I just want to thank a certain someone for helping me through everything and getting me to where I am right now," Ruibin looks into the camera and you feel as if he's looking directly at you.

"Thank you. You did it for me and it really was for the best," Ruibin smiles.

"No problem," you whisper to no one in particular, knowing that he won't hear you through the screen anyway.

A smile finds its way onto your face as you watch Ruibin find his way to his seat. He had made it and that is all you could've asked for.