It's never easy knowing that you are always going to never be first. With anyone....not your acquaintances, not your family(maybe), and most definitely not your friends. They may not realise it yet but I do. I don't mean to sound pessimistic but it's the truth. I always try to put everyone first. Well.... I do put everyone first. And it hurts to know that no one is ever like that with me. But why am I complaining? If they are happy that is all I ask. Even if I'm not. They dont need to focus on me or my problems. Not like I'd open up anyways. Resorting to this just so that I can get my thoughts down without being known.
