Behind The Scenes

III.

I want everyone that reads this book, and any other book that I [might] publish to know that even though I write books to satisfy yall, I really do care about my wattpad family.

Starting now, I will put a QCC (Questions, Concerns, Comments) at the end of each chapter, that way yall can communicate what yall would like to see, wants/needs, and just a place to express yourselves and communicate with me.

I need y'all just like y'all need me.

Side note: How cute are they!

Enjoy!!!

Anerissa

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Onika M.

2 weeks later.

It's been 2 months since Me and Chris'  restaurant run-in and he's been great ever since. He's sent flowers, chocolates, and fruits to my door.

2 weeks ago, i told him to come to my house and we had dinner and we didn't do anything but talk, and talk some more, and talk some more.

He just... when i'm with Chris he brings out the real me. The trinidadian me. I'm not Roman with him, I'm not barbie with him, hell, i'm not even Nicki with him. With him i'm simply just Onika from Queens.

A slightly loud alert from my phone snapped me out of my thoughts. Chris' name popped up across the screen.

Breezy💞: Really need to talk to you. Can i come through later?

Me: yeah you can come later. What's wrong? Everything ok? Did i do something?

Breezy💞: Lol nah. You ain't do nun ma. I'll talk to you bout it when i come. What time you want me to come?

Me: it's up to you. What time were you thinking?

Breezy💞: uhhhh, 3 maybe? Cool?

Me: yeah that's cool. See you then Breezy.

Breezy💞: You like that nickname huh? 😂 you won't let it go

Me: Nope. That's your contact name too 🤪

Breezy💞: mhmmm, I gotchu Tanya.

Me: boy bye 😂

Breezy💞: mhmmm🤪. I'm in the studio though I'll see you later on

Me: okay😘😘😘

I had to do something to pass the time, since Chris was coming at 3 and it's now 1. I can't clean because my house was already clean, as always. I literally don't have anything to do right now, but sit and wait on Chris.

Dreadfully slow, 3 o'clock arrived and just as promised, I heard a knock on the door. I went to open the door.

"Sup 'Nika" he hugged me tightly.

"Hi Chris" wasting no time, i jumped right to the point. Wanting to know what he had to talk to me about. "So, what did you want to talk to me about?"

"So, I don't know what this is we doing. Like, Ion know if we kicking it, just hanging out or what, but whatever it is, I want it to stay private. Just you and me knowing wassup. I don't like people in my business or knowing what's going on"

"Agreed. Totally"

"The second thing, I know you're pretty much aware of my past you know with people refering to me as a 'woman beater' but I just wanna let you know the real deal. I didn't hit her because I wanted to. You know, for more than a decade she been around here telling what I did, but not telling her part in it too. Never once did she try to clear my name, she just wanted me to go down. She really could've ruined my career. Anyways, I know i hit her, but not just for no reason. And let me just say, I don't condone anyone hitting women. But, she was provoking me. We got in an argument and I was trying to explain to her that I didn't cheat on her. But she thought otherwise and start hitting, punching, scratching, beating the shit out of me; all while i'm still driving. So, I was trying to calm her down with my words at first but she just kept at it. Then, I was trying to use the hand I wasn't driving with to keep her from hitting me. But she kept going in and me trying to restrain her, I didn't realize I had hit her until i looked over and saw her holding her nose with blood gushing out of it. I tried to 'Baby are you okay?', 'Baby I didn't mean it but you can't beat me while I'm driving' type shit but that made her go in at me harder. I didn't realize I had hit her a second time until my fist started to tingle a little bit. I looked over and seen her eye. I just had to get out of that car as soon as possible. I explained all that to you to say, I'm not the monster she's made me out to be all these years. Yes, I know i shouldn't have hit her, and that doesn't excuse my poor judgement, but it wasn't the whole story. And I want you to know that I would NEVER, EVER lay and finger on you in a way that you would think to be disrespectful. I'm not a monster. I just wanted to clear that up with you."