Summer Camp (Conman/ Kleinphy fic)

Chapter Nine: Confessions

Jared was kissing Connor.

    This was a real thing that was happening, not a dream.

    At least he hoped it wasn't a dream.

    Oh god what if it was a dream?

    Jared cupped Connor's face, feeling his soft cheeks and pulling him in closer. There was no way this could be a dream, it was too real. Jared could feel Connor's warm skin against his as they pressed together, he could smell the cheap, but still sweet-smelling conditioner that Connor used, and could hear the small delighted noises coming from Connor.

    Jared wasn't exactly an expert, but he could almost gather that Connor actually liked kissing him.

    That is, until Connor pushed Jared off of him.

    Jared was left sitting alone on the opposite side of the raft. They were back to awkward long silence, which Jared didn't like. A sea of questions swarmed through Jared's head. Did Connor hate him? Did Connor even like boys? Would Connor tell everyone what Jared did?

So, Jared did the only thing he was capable of doing at that moment, sitting in miserable silence. Soon, the two boys arrived at the dock and were able to get out of their drenched clothing and eat some goddamn food.

Connor left to go to the cabin without saying as much as a word to Jared, which made him uneasy.

Jared headed to the girls' cabin. It may not have been ideal, but at least he might get some answers from Alana.

Jared knocked on the cabin door, anxiously waiting for an answer. A couple seconds later Zoe opened the door, looking a bit surprised to see Jared.

"Hey, what's up?" Zoe asked, looking Jared up and down. "You look... not good."

"I don't feel good, is Alana here?" Jared asked, stepping into the cabin. Jared was met not with Alana, but with Evan sitting shirtless on Zoe's bed.

    Jared somehow could not muster the strength to care at this point. He just needed to see Alana, Alana would know what to do. He just needed-

    Jared burst out crying, right in front of Zoe and Evan. God, who hasn't Jared cried in front of now?

    "Jared, are you okay?" Evan asked nervously, quickly pulling on his shirt. Jared could feel Zoe's hand rest on his back, soothingly petting him.

    "What's wrong?" Zoe said sweetly, leading Jared over to the bed, where she sat him down.

    Jared couldn't even bring himself to talk, he was crying with great, hiccuping sobs. He hated it.

   Fuck emotions.

"Jared?" Evan and Zoe were on both sides of him, each petting and trying to sooth him.

"No, it's just," Jared gulped, rubbing the tears out of his eyes. He didn't even know what to say.

"Is this about Alana?" Evan asked softly. "You two seemed to be on good terms though-"

"It's not about Alana, ok?" Jared raised his voice slightly before more tears fell from his eyes. "It's just, I kissed Connor."

There was silence in the room for a minute.

Jared was beginning to hate silence.

"Did my brother make you because I can go yell at him-" Zoe started.

"No, he didn't kiss me, I kissed him." Jared sighed, looking down at his lap. There was another pause.

"Why?" Evan sounded very confused.