Perfect (Matt Espinosa Fanfic)

Funeral

Matts P.O.V

A few weeks after Tori died her funeral was going to happen.

I don't know If I could do it but I pulled through because I know she would do the same for me.

I cried myself to sleep every night. I wouldn't leave or do anything for about a week.

The day of her funeral I forced myself to get up even though I knew today would be the hardest day of my life.

I put on my best suit, wiped my tears, and went to the store and bought 3 things of flowers. Her favorites, roses and Dasies. One plain roses, one plain Dasies and the other one both combined.

I got to the funeral home and broke down. I started sobbing. I couldn't control it.

I sat through the whole thing crying. And then they called me up to speak.

"I don't know if I'm capable to do this without breaking into tears but I will try. Tori was the most amazing, honest, gorgeous person I knew. Always making the best out of the worst. She had the biggest heart and could make everyone around her laugh and smile. I miss her so much it hurts me knowing I won't be able to hear her laugh or listen to her talk or to tell her I love her. Tori was the light of my life. I'm trying to keep head up because I know she would want me to. I want one more chance, I wanna hear her voice again. She loves everyone in this room and even though it's hard I think she would want everyone in this room to be happy. I know she's watching over everyone of us in this room. And she's with us everywhere we go. I'll miss her and I know everyone in this room will too. Rest in peace Tori. I love you."

After all this was said and done we went to barial. I fell to the ground sobbing when they starting putting stuff she could take with her. Put in her casket.

I put a picture of us that we took in a mall. One of the photo booth things.

I also put a ring on her finger. I had the other ring so we always stay together.

They put the casket in the ground and I couldn't help but break down.

We all went home and I just cried for almost 2 days straight.

4 days after the funeral I got enought courage to go to her grave.

I waked up to the stone figure and put roses on top of it.

"Tori. It's me. I really really miss you. It's been hell without you but I'm trying my hardest. I'm trying to live without your smile, your laugh, your kiss. I'm lost without you by my side. I know you wouldn't want me like this but I can't help thinking about you every second. It hurts me knowing I will never be able to kiss or hug you again. But I just want you to know how much I love you and that I will never ever love anyone the way I loved you. You were the love of my life and you will be until the day I die. This isn't goodbye, this is see you later. "

News Reporter

"Matthew Espinosa. A loving boy who made everyone laugh on vine and at magcon. The 16 year old boy took his own life today. The boy had recently just lost his 15 year old girlfriend, Tori Athey in a car crash back about 4 weeks ago. Many say that's why he killed himself, but the truth is in the note he wrote and wanted this to be read aloud on the news,

"To my family, I'm so sorry i hope you can forgive me. I love everyone of you and just know I'm in a better place with another beautful angel in heaven. Read this note everywhere. And this is not a goodbye, this is a see you later. I love you"