Recess: Secret of Beginning

Chapter 14

Spinelli half comprehended the knock on her door as she swallowed in the much needed air and let out ragged sobs. "Look I'm probably the last person you want to talk to right now but I can understand how you feel. We're particularally in the same boat" Renee coaxed gently.

Spinelli debated wether to move. It was one wrapping her head around her parents behaviour. It was compeletly different coming to terms you have a twin sister that you should let into your life and get to know.

"Could I please come in so we could talk about this?" Renee pleaded. She tried pushing open the door again and to her surprise it opened with no problem. "Spinelli?" Renee called out as she cautioulsly stepped into the room. As she looked around and took a peek into Spinelli's bathroom she realized the girl was gone.

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Spinelli let her feet guide her as she walked. In the corner of her mind she knew exactly were she was going but consciously she was a complete sobbing mess that was stumbling around as if she was drunk trying to make anything out from her blurry vision that only got worse as more tears came.

She wasn't surprised to find herself on the deteweilers porch as she rang the doorbell and waited for the door to open. T.J's parents were off on a conference out of town so Becky was left in charge of minding T.J. She heard the padding of feet and T.J's voice calling out that he'll be there in a moment. As he opened the door he immediatly recognized Spinelli so without any closer inspection he left the door wide open and trotted off into the kitchen.

"Good thing your here Spin. I'm being beaten horribly and I could really use an extra player" T.J said as Spinelli followed him slowly into the kitchen were T.J proceeded to take out a ready pizza from the oven."Becky's coming back with ice cream and sweets later on so your're more then welcome to sta-" He stopped mid sentence as he glanced at Spinelli and finally noticed something was off.

She didn't look up. She had an arm wrapped around her torso hugging herself. And as she reached out her other hand to cover her mouth to muffle the sob she let out, T.J was by her side in a flash embracing her. She held herself back still trying to put up the tough girl attitude.

"Spin. Just let it out" T.J said sternly as he clenched his jaw. That was all for Spinelli as she clung onto him tighter and let herself properly cry without holding back. T.J hugged her back and shut his eyes. He never, ever in the time he knew Spinelli heard her cry as she did in that moment. The girl sounded desperate, as if she was being put through horrible pain and just wanted it to end. 

T.J led her into the sitting room and sat down with her still tangled in his arms. It took an hour before Spinelli's loud wails turned into quiet sniffiling. T.J's heart that was racing in concern started to calm down when her sobs subsided. It was heart breaking, he was not used to seeing this side of Spinelli.

"You want to tell me what happened?" T.J asked gently as he played with her hair in a loving manner. Spinelli sighed. "Can we leave it til later? I think I need a nap. My head and stomache are killing me" Spinelli mumbled as she nuzzled into his neck.

T.J's felt a blush creep up his neck at her affection. "S-s-s-sure, I can help you up to my bed and leave you be-" T.J cursed himself for stuttering as he sat up and prepared to help her get up with him but she stopped him. "No!" Spinelli said as she hugged him tighter. "I don't want to move.....and...I don't want you to go either" She mumbled and cursed herself for blushing as well.

But in that moment she was too exhasuted to care about reputation. She just wanted to rest and not be alone. That whole fiasco left her feeling betrayed and lonely. She only wanted to feel some type of affcection.

T.J always made her feel wanted. She knew he cared and would always be there for her. He didn't have to say anything. His presence alone calmed her down. His body heat and listening to his heart was enough to lull her to sleep. She did notice his heart was beating unusually fast but in the state she was in she ignored the detail.

"O-okay" T.J replied gently with a stutter. Half of him was shocked. This was so unlike Spinelli. He was questioning if he might be dreaming again. While the other side of him was thrilled. His heart was racing, his stomache was doing flips and his face felt unusually hot. His mind was racing with questions but he pushed them to the back of his mind.

They could wait. Spinelli was the most important thing at the moment. If this was what she needed, he would not hesitate to follow. He would do anything for the girl if it was something she really wanted. In all honesty, he had no problem to go along. He had to admit he actaully.....enjoyed it. It felt natrual to....how did Becky describe it in her diary?......to cuddle! that's the word.

So the two young teens shut their minds and let themselves relax and enjoy the moment before reality hit them and they would got back to denying any growing feelings they had for each other.

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"She's gone" Renee said as she trotted downstairs. Her eyebrows were furrowed in worry. It's true she didn't know Spinelli at all. But she felt a responsibility that she had to look out for her and be there for her when she was going through tough times. Probably a sister instinct or something.

"Gone!?" Flo exclaimed and exchanged a look with Bob. The two didn't say anything for a moment. They didn't have to. Years of being married and in love let them communicate just by looking at each other.

They let out a sigh and relaxed back into the couch. Renee looked at them slightly confused. "I'm not questioning your parenting but you don't seem to be too worried that she's gone. Shouldn't we go look for her?" Renee asked as she came around the couch to face them.

"She's with T.J. She'll be back when she's ready" Flo replied. Renee was still confused. "Who's T.J? her boyfriend?" She questioned. Flo rolled her eyes. "You would think so but no" She replied. "He's one of her best friends. He lives two doors down. Really great kid. We know the family since the two went to kindergarten together" Bob explained.

"If she ends up staying the night there we're not too worried. I'll give their house a ring in a few minutes to check" Flo smiled. Renee still looked a bit on the edge. "Renee, trust us. T.J will not let a hair fall off my pookie's head" Bob smiled and chuckled lightly to himselve.

Renee let out a sigh and sat down on the couch."They must be pretty close if you trust him that much. Sounds like someone needs to open theses two's eyes about how they feel" she smiled.  "Uh huh" the Spinelli's agreed and even the dogs gave a bark of agreement.

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I got the feels? did you get the feels? I hope you got the feels! cause this chapter was just LOADED with fluff!!!!!

I didn't really know how to end it but I hope it's okay :P

I was so happy to finally write a big T.J and Spinelli moment :D let me know what you thought ;)

As always, I hope you enjoyed

Love -

Natalia