I Am Scared
What would you feel if your life was full of pain?
Of torment?
Of taunting and insults?
I have tried to be brave,
But I am scared
My heart and my low self-esteem battle fiercely.
You know it’s pointless, just give up
You know you’ll never win
Says my self-esteem slyly
Have faith, you are a strong person
You’ve got to keep your head up
My heart says encouragingly
Don’t joke with yourself,
You know they’re right
Just look at yourself,
I look, and see through my low esteem’s eyes
See, you’re just as ugly and fat as they say you are
He says in a voice filled with venom.
Look again, and see through MY eyes this time.
This time I look at myself in my will’s point of view
You’re smart, you’re talented, and they’re all just jealous.
You have skills, you have grace,
And you have friends and family that love and support you.
What do you have to worry about?
Asks my heart kindly
But I am scared
They have come again
It hurts
It rips through my very being
Not just the words,
But the evil intentions behind those words
Behind those simple, yet deadly letters
See, I told you I was right. I’m ALWAYS right
Said my esteem in a knowing way
Fight back! You know it’s there inside of you! Please!
You have to at least try!
Begged my heart desperately
I wanted so badly to listen to my heart
To show the world that I had a voice,
A hand in my own fate.
But it hurts
It hurts so much
I am afraid for what comes next,
I try to be brave, but it’s no use because,
I am scared.
YOU ARE READING
I Am Scared
PoetryI wrote this poem for a contest at my school to raise awareness against bullying. I won the contest :) But anyway I really think bullying is a serious issue and that many times it doesn't have a happy ending.