being sad nowadays is kind of all im good at to be honest. I wake up sad go to bed sad do things during the day while being sad. I can't remember a day I was genuinely happy. I've felt this way ever since I was 11. seven years ago. Wow. I need to learn how to forget and forgive but its hard when all you want to do is scream that it wasnt fair or right, that what you did wasn't ok. It's been a year with you back in my life and its weird I don't know you anymore. To be honest I never did you were just this empty shell of a person. I see you smile and it's foreign to me but it makes me feel good, you deserve it. but so do i. for the longest time i believed everyone deserved to be happy but me. I was so afraid to be happy that I pushed everyone and everything away because it hurt less. Being alone hurt less but now I'm alone for 7 years and I'm hurting more then ever.
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Simply Complicated
PoesiaShort things I've written expressing how I've been feeling. This actually started as something just for me, to let my emotions out in a healthy way. Thought I 'd share them with you.
