EMPTY | k.daniel ff

~5~

Well, my life span is running out. I'm only left with a few months. Yes, i was being serious when i said im going to kill myself. September 23 2018. That's when i'll do it. But maybe i won't. I'm not the type to be selfish when i take my life. If someone really cares, if someone really takes the initiative to stop me. Then i'll stop. If nobody cares. Then i'll do it. Simple as that.

All it takes is one person. That one special person to stop someone's death. I wonder who... even is i did die, no one's gonna be at my funeral, at my grave. Because they don't care. Nobody cares.

Well ok, enough about myself. Let's get on to what's happening in my life. I mean like, i should tell you more about my life than about myself. Im nothing but a spect of dust people step on. So, everything was normal. People are still trying to torture me. Trying. Why do i say trying? Because there's always someone to stop it. Kang Daniel.

He then started to be my friend. Again, very interesting. Now i have two friends. Kang Daniel and Lai Guanlin. We don't hang out together though. Im sometimes with Daniel, sometimes im with Guanlin. I must say, they're both cute. They're both trying to make me smile by cracking up jokes. Some of them are lame but, deep down inside, i actually laughed. Daniel has always been laughing at every little thing. Although i don't find it funny, it was nice to see others smile. It means that at least they have a life unlike me, slowly dying inside.

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I was hanging out with Daniel today. I noticed something weird about him. He's usually bubbly and fun when he's around me but now, he's cold and isolated. But maybe i know the answer to why he's like this. He's jealous. I know it's crazy but... ok ill explain what happened.

It's after school and i stayed back with Daniel to study together at the library. While we were studying, i watched him. He's not talking. That's the weirdest thing about him. He's so isolated. And i hated it. I don't want him to be in the state like i am right now.

After studying for about an hour plus, we wanted to walk around the school and admire the scenery. That was when i thought it was the perfect time to ask him what was wrong. "Um Daniel, can i just ask, why are you acting like this?" I ask softly.

He stopped in his tracks and turned his whole body to face me. Because of our dramatic height difference, i needed to look up at him. Watching him staring down at me was probably one of the scariest things ever. His eyes were cold. It was as if he's mad at me.

He forcefully pulled my hand and drags me off to the garden. Yes, the garden. I was shook (more like jungshook). I thought no one know this place. Well, apparently he knows it. He pushes me down on the bench and puts his both hands on the seat as he leans in, trapping me. I was frozen. Completely frozen. My mind went blank. Daniel was never like this. I just wonder why...

Daniel breathes heavily, ruffling his hair as his eyes pierce into mine. I realised two things. One: he actually looks 10 times hotter like this. Kinda unbelievable for me to say. Two: He's.... blushing? Is he nervous? Shy? Shit it only makes me more nervous. He takes a deep breath before talking.

"I don't like you hanging out with that Guanlin." He says with a stern voice, sending shivers down my spine.

"W-What?" I ask, stuttering from the amount of nervousness i received from his statement.

Daniel turns his head away in embarrassment. A bit weird for me to say this but, it's kinda cute when he tries to act tough but is actually shy. I don't know why. I just find it cute. Is it weird? Maybe, maybe not. Daniel then repeats his sentence.

I didn't know how to react. My guts were screaming to run away. I could feel my face heating up. Not wanting for him to see me in this state, i stood up and ran out of the garden while i heard Daniel calling out my name. While running, i bump into the person i least wanted to bump into. Guanlin. I turn my head to see Daniel running to me. I'm so dead.