Loving a pop-star!

Chapter 5

Olive knocked on my bedroom and i looked myself in the mirror one last time. I was going out for drinks with Jo and i was really nervous "let me see what your in!" she said entering my room.

I turned round to face her and she looked me over. I was in some tight navy blue skinny jeans, a brighter blue top and a white cardigan. i had some black converse on aswell.

She nodde din response and i smiled "its okay?" i asked and she nodded "its fine its just drinks not really a date although i know you styill love her, i can see it in your eyes and i know you wish it was!" i blushed a bit,

"is it that obvious?" i asked holding my head in my hands "im your daughter i see everything!" she said and i sighed "i just know im gonna muck this up i can sense it!" i said pacing the room with nertves. Olive laughed lightly,

"mum just calm down you'll be fine okay, just keep a level head!" she said and i nodded. The doorbell went. I looked at Olive nervous and she let out a light laugh "i'll get it and calm down!" she said before leaving to answer the door,

I took my phone off its charger seeing i had a message, it was from my sister. I had told both her and Olive of all of thsi and she wasnt to surptised we were going out tonight,

Good luck girly, dont be nervousxxx!

I sent her a quickk text back saying it was to late. I slid my phone in my pocket and headed downstairs trying to control my breathing. I heard voices from the living rooma nd i made my way there,

I saw Jo sitting on the couch with olive and they smiled at me when i showed my face. I looked Jo over and she was in some tight black skinny jeans, a light grey shirt and a black hoddie, it sited her well.

"shall we go?" she asked and i nodded "i'll have her home by ten!" Jo said and Olive nodded "sure whatever~!" she said and i smiled more,

We got in jo's car and we drove in comfortable silence with the radio on lightly.

I gasped lightly as i saw where we were going. She parked the car and i looked at her smiling, she gave me a warm smile back and we got out of the car.

It was just as beautiful as i remember, especially in the night sky.The sun was just setting and it looked beautiful. 

It was the lake where we had our first date.

We sat at the tree not really talking more taking in the view "i know i said dribks but i thought comming here would be better!" she said breaking the silence. I smiled more if it was possible "this is better!" i said and she smiled,

"so TinTin,m tell me more about you. Its been ten whole years!" she said and i laughed a bit "i dont know...what do you want to know?" i asked and she thought about it "I want to say love life but that would be highly inapropriate so... work, hows it been?"

I blushed lightly, she wanted to know about my love life. Before I put more thought into it I answered her question,

"its work... so crap!" i said making her laugh which made me smile. "fair enough" she said letting some confortable silence come over us,

There was a question I was itching to ask and well I was going to ask.

"Jo..

I trailed of making her look at me with those innocent eyes of hers. I got lost in them.

Everthing about her is just...breathtaking. I couldn't help but glance down at her lips that were formed in a relaxed light smile,

I looked back at her eyes that were looking at my eyes full of lust and... something else?

I felt something warm and soft against my lips making me feel sparks. I felt warm and fuzzy inside.

She was kissing me!

I kissed her back with just as much passion.

I pulled her closer to me asking for entrance which shw kindly gave me. Our tongues danced together like they hadnt been apart.

I missed this so much. Her taste. Her touch against my skin. The way her smile forms on her beautiful face.

I missed it all.

We pulled away both panting and staring at each other not sure of what to say. What do you say?

I cleared my throat and shifted slightly so we weren't as close. I stared down at the grass picking it slightly,

"I still love you!" it was barely a whisper im surprised I even heard it,

I just stayed silent. I've dreamt and dreamt about this and how we kiss again and live our lives in harmony,

In my dreams we share a heart to heart, kiss and live long and old together,

But...

That's a dream this is reality and as much as I want to kiss her I know I cant. Reason being,

She literly just got out of a relationship, and an abusive one at that.

I turned myself to look at Jo deliberetly not looking at her eyes as I know I wont be able to do it.

I took her hands in mine abd theu were warm and soft.

"Jo im not going to lie, I love you too. I've loved you everyday since you left I couldn't get over you,

I tried and failed many times and I think its a little creepy how Olive has posters of my ex-!girlfriend on her wall but we wont go there." this made her laugh lightly,

"but you just got out of a relationship!" I finally looked up at her and she was cringing lighlrt I guess she knew where this was going,

"im not sure what you want and im positive you dont know either so im going to let you think,

if you decided against it then we can be friends but if you want more then we can talk!"

This was heart-breaking. I wanted to say I was just joking and kiss her but I knew I couldn't, she had to think.

I saw tears in her eyes which brought me to tears but I held them in.

She pulled me into a hug and I held onto her tight "thank you!' she whispered and I nodded,

"just think" I said and she nodded.We both saw the time and we had to leave.

The car journey was silent and I just wanted to go home and cry.

We hugged before I left. I got in the house and heard my sister talking with Olive in the living room,

I took a breath and walked in. They stopped talking and looked at me as I took a seat,

I tried holding the tears but mu efforts failed. I held my head in my hands as they both hugged me

"I mucked it up" I croaked out. "how?" Olive asked as I dried my eyes.

I proceeded to tell thwm all that happened through severel pauses for me to cry.

"you did the right thing" my sister said and I shrugged,

"I dont know but I do know im going to bed for the night!" they both said goodnight as I qwent to bed trying to ignore the fact Jo and I might never be an item. again.