philophobia

with love

been quite a while

since i've been able to figure out those bits of friendship

not because it's been gone but just-

not seeing someone and being busted with others i-

i thought i lost people. 

threads coming away from the surface, 

always loose

if only i had known - 

thoughts of mine should become a reality. 

it was always them 

they never wanted me never cared never needed anything 

d i s a p p o i n t m e n t . 

you- one of the few constants in this never ending equation of madness 

the one i can vent to when the dork just can't possibly understand

because no matter how much i tell him the little pieces of me he'll never really truly know what i've been through- 

you know. 

thank you.