I have this constant fear that I'm never going to forget you. The way your hazel eyes pierced mine or your goofy grin that always made my heart beat 10x faster and what sucks the most is that you were never mine to begin with but I fell hopelessly in love with you. It's been a year but I still can't forget you. In the middle of the night when everything is quiet and everyone's asleep I think of you. Even if I don't realize it, you find your way back into my memory to the point where it makes me sick to my stomach and I can't breathe because I don't want to love you anymore and it sucks because I finally thought I was forgetting you. I was finally happy. But then my memories of you come flooding back and I'm sitting in my room with tears flooding down my face and my throat burns because I'm screaming to the ceiling begging myself to forget you because if I don't it's only gonna hurt me worse. I love you. I fucking love you but you don't love me and I don't know what's worse.
-xoAsh
