DELETED trust. [Jongdae x Reader]

Depression

Ugh, what's with this stupid headache...

I continuously rubbed my eyes until I can see the horrifying world again. I checked my wrists for any healing from last week.

Yes, I did cut myself, so what. It doesn't affect shit.

I got up from my bed and got to the bathroom to do regular things that a regular teenager would do. You know, cry in the shower for 3 hours straight thinking about life. Kidding. I brushed my teeth and did my hair like what an alien would do.

I went down stairs after I did my routine and flopped on the couch.

Me: Morning mom..

Mom: Morning kiddo, want some eggs for breakfast?

Me: I think I'll skip..

Mom: Honey... You've been skipping all your meals for the past few days.. Are you alright?

Me: Yea I'm good.

No mom, I'm internally screaming inside and my soul wants to escape my body. Of course I'm fine.

I got up and grabbed my bag for school.

Me: Alright I'm gonna go now mom.

Mom: Okay baby.. Have a nice day.

Me: You too.

I went out the house and headed straight for school. Probably the worst part of the day. Actually wait no. Wait yep, school is the worst.

Just when I got to school, I plastered a fake wide smile on my face, just to show everyone that I'm a pure child of God that doesn't have depression eating away at her head.

Minseo (bestfriend): y/nnnnnnnn how are you?

Me: Ahah.. Well I'm fine..

You know how your typical bestfriend would know every single thing about you? Yea well not my bestfriend. She doesn't know about my depression, which is honestly pretty sad but hey, at least I'm good at hiding secrets right?

Minseo: Hey, did you finish your homework?

Me: Yea, why?

Minseo: Can I-

Me: You are not going to copy it you lazy ass.

Minseo gave me the ugliest pouty face in the whole entire world.

Of course, I gave her a disgusted look.

Me: Stop.

I grabbed my homework from my backpack and shoved it in her face.

Minseo: Thanks y/n!!

I just rolled my eyes and continued walking in the hallways. Minseo and I headed to our typical "hanging out" place. You know, the rooftop, where every single person in a movie hangs out on. As we got there, we sat on a bench, trying to catch our breath from the long flight of stairs.

Minseo: Hey y/n.. You know Jongdae right?

Me: Hm? Yea of course. We went to the same elementary and middle school. Why would I forget about him?

Minseo: Well I heard he's dating someone at the moment.

Me: Oh really?

Damn it. Man I shouldn't even be surprised. He's like the popular guy around school, of course he's dating someone. Ughhhhhhh, this is one reason why I'm depressed. Fuck him.

Minseo and I ended up talking about something else and after the bell rang, we separated to head to class.

Lets just skip all of the school shit and head straight to after school yea?