MOUSA: The goddess Of Poetry.

STRANGE FEELINGS

I don't know why I still feel the presence of heaven,
The last time I saw the shining smile plastered on your face.

Do I still have a chance?
The chance to say
what my heart feels
everytime it beats so fast.

Can I ask you one more chance?
Even if my mind can't explain why is it always you and your stupid memories roaming inside it.

I'm always trying myself to stop my mind on thinking all about you,
and to stop this strange feelings of  mine towards you.

But then, I realized that I don't have any chance but to just let it all be,
 Let my feelings show and my thoughts go.

My only hope to stay is up on how will you react on it. I can't explain why
I always care about you, even if you don't do the same thing.

I can't wonder why
my ears and eyes are always searching the voices
and presence of yours.

Why is it always you?
Why are you always
on my dream laughin'
like there's no tomorrow.

You know, you're always on my mind.
I can't remove you there.
Imagine? I can't remove you
from my own mind. Stupidity!

Sometimes, I tried to forget you.
I tried to pretend that I don't know anything about you.
But, I failed.

Sometimes, I tried to pretend that
you doesn't exist. But my feelings
for you always remind me that
I will never forget you.

And one time, I really tried
to forget my feelings for you
and just pretend that I never
felt those things toward you.

But my heart makes me realize
that these feelings
will never fade'cause
it will live with you forever.

I know, I keep on denying
my feelings for you,
'cause I don't know
How to start on explain it.

Even me, I can't
explain it by myself.
So, how the hell
can I explain it to you.

And anyways, I don't even
want you to know anything
about it cause it will
make no changes at all.

Is there anyone can help me
to get away from this stupidity?
Somebody help me to remove
my mind from this hell situation?

Is there something that
can help me to move on?
Anything like
delete button or potions?

I don't wanna be affected anymore.
I don't wanna hurt again.
I don't wanna be jealous,
Even if I don't have the right to.

I can't fight this feeling anymore.
I don't wanna get insane
of thinkin' on how can I
remove myself from this mess.

Until now, I'm still hoping
that you'll see the efforts, care , concern and even my love for you through my actions.

'Cause you know, Even my tongue
can't express those strange feelings.
But, I think you will see, notice and feel it someday, when it's already late.

When I stop showing it to you.
Ican't wait to see that day.
When I stop showing
my love for you.