coffee||minsung

day twelve

i havent updated in so long im sorry

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jisung:
minnie? please talk to me..

minnie<3:
about what? about the fact that you cheated on me with my brother because it would hurt ME less? you dont get to decide what hurts me jisung.

jisung:
min please just hear me out..

minnie<3:
no. the fact that you cheated on me WITH MY BROTHER was enough. i was able to look past that. it took everything in me to forgive you. you literally broke my heart jisung. and i was able to forgive you! but your reasoning was because "it would hurt me less"?????? it hurt me enough knowing that i wasnt good enough for the one person that i truly loved. but it was my brother. IT MADE EVERYTHING SO MUCH WORSE JISUNG. DO YOU NOT UNDERSTAND THAT?? EXPLAIN TO ME HOW IT WOULD HURT LESS PLEASE.

jisung:
i always knew that i was going to hurt you.
because i always somehow manage to fuck shit up when i love someone.
i was talking to minhyuk that day and i explained to him that i needed to hurt you intentionally for my sake, i knew it would suck, i knew i would lose you, but i didnt want it to be an accident. i needed to be aware that i was hurting you before i did it by accident.
yes it was my idea to cheat because im a fucking horrible person
minhyuk offered to cheat with him because it would hurt less
and im not using it as an excuse im just trying to explain

minnie<3:
what
how would you hurt me accidentally?
i dont understand..?

jisung:
everything ive ever loved ends up
in pieces at my feet.
you gave me the best 2 years of my life min, and all i gave you was a broken heart.
i was never good enough for you,
you were out of my league but you still
somehow chose me. i didnt want to
blindly break you.
it would hurt both ways, but doing it with open eyes seemed like the better option...

minnie<3:
i gtg.
i just
i need to take this all in
by myself
bye jisung

jisung:
oh..
will i see you at blackbird tomorrow...?

minnie<3:
i dont know yet